Little update on Mx week

After management for 3 weeks, finally I managed to go back to my sweet home since I really can't stand with it anymore. Met up my beloved family and buddies, really can made my days brighter and happier. Had my da bao dinner with dad and lil sis after back from KL, then went dinner again with Mian and MK for our favorite naan, then straight away went to sing K and met up Negi and JT as what I told them before I go back. Sing K plus the extra jokes and laughter from them really released my super stressful mood.

Saturday morning sent my dad for work, lil sis for celebrating her fren's birthday, then find my mom for lunch together, as this time my mom busy with her work, I have no chance to eat her homemade food. Then shopping alone in JJ and back to home for my nap. Seriously need to recharge myself because of the management, but still not enough. Evening pick up my dad from work, and ate our dinner together in home. Night time went out with besties for yam cha section in Chatpoint Cafe. Nice environment and food! Chit-chatted and plan for our next outing when I'm back next time. Can't wait for that!


Sunday as usual is sad day as I have to go back to hostel. Highway was so jammed and many trees fall down due to thunderstorm. I was back safely, with a surprised call. LOL

Now can't wait for my last management week ends and start over again my ordinary (?) student posting life. Also looking forward to my holiday, wish my request approved! [Management can kill people!!]


P/S: Miss you miss you! =]

'Mix and Match'

Working in the hospital definitely may made you see through this world. I had seen so many kind of human being while I'm doing my practical for this 2 years and 6 months. Depressed, arrogant, egoism, cheerful, talkative, anti-social, opinionated, urbane... All these made me to think of what kind of human being should I be. So sharpen my patience, lessen my negative words, speaks my words politely, eat healthy diet, always bring my smile toward others -- this is what I turned to be currently. Maybe you all still wondering did I turned into that way, perhaps I just show that characteristics during working, but definitely I changed after at all. I know myself better than others.

So what's all the point I talked as above? Nothing special but just to reflect myself compared past and present, also compared to others. As you know new year is just the corner, I need to set some resolutions for the brand new year. But it still too early to show what I really want to achieve for the next 21st year, my existence in this world. Haha. Just stay tuned.

These few weeks as usual, busy with all those posting and settle down my procedures. Exhausted, but when I'm thinking of what's going to happen if this and that cannot turned as what I wish, I still hold my breathe and continue the job. Now still left 2 to be achieved, just see will it end as what I wish. Hopefully it does.

And finally is the day I waited for so long -- Christmas! It means I can go back to my sweet home and meet all my beloved people! Can't wait for all that~

Till end, I don't know why I wanna post this rojak post. Too bored to write journal. XD

Happy Winter Solstice! Merry Christmas!

It's RM2.50 to exchange my "Happy Winter Solstice" mood~

P/S: All I want for Christmas is YOU!!! =D

Lucky 787

Lately was so busy due to last week posting at psychiatric ward, and many journals need to be done. So everyday I rush and rush but till now still got some haven't done yet, when only I can finish it all?? Sigh~~

So recently what did I had, actually the routine almost the same but still something special to go on. Hehe~

Firstly, I successfully done my 3rd time night shift, although every night were so damn busy till we all having "food on run", not much time to eat supper, and slept so long hours still can't recover back the tiredness, even after my night off still the same. Of course, I did feel sad about that, 'cause there's no one really can accept the death in a very short period, although is stranger. May you rest in peace.

I really enjoy well during my night off. Had a great moment with my family, ate my mom's homecook, and sleep at my own lovely bed. Met Xiong and Xian too, but I miss the rest of them also. Watched The Smurfs, a great movie and really laugh out loud in the threater, also Nasi Lemak 2.0, a truly Malaysia film. Holiday is short, but I appreciate the time be with them. =)

Second, I went to IJN event on 25 Sept Sunday early morning, had a mile walk around Taman Tasik Titiwangsa, and surprisingly I won a consolation prize from lucky draw no. '787' -- 2 persons buffet high tea voucher at Berjaya Times Square KL. Teehee~~ So happy about that I didn't miss it! Because when I just went out from the toilet and I heard my lucky draw number from the stage, I quickly ran to the stage there and trying to reconfirm, but I saw a lady went up and took her prize and thus I thought my prize gone as I took too long time to reach there, but luckily my sixth sense told me not to give up, and I went to the stage and reconfirm with the emcee. Haha~ So now just awaiting my sister back from her Taiwan trip and date her to there!

Third, had my first time ever experience in psychiatric posting at HKL. Get many brand new experiences from there as we usually won't contact with this type of patients in our hospital. Saw some extraordinary scenes and really made us in a big shock and laugh too. Life is cruel to make them become like that. So that's why many people said reality orientation is much important for all of us, we must be able to manage our stress and not to get ourselves in bad mood too long period. Every cloud has a silver lining~ But yet I still hate the rushing journal part and not to forget the mumbling part, and of course the hot weather too! XD

So because of all these stress, after the case study presentation, we went to eat Chilis as to distress for a short while. We kept on refill the chips for 2 times and scary part is to refill the variety of fruit juices for 5 times. LOL~ After 2 hours and finally fulfill our stomach and happiness too! Heehee~

This week will be the last week of posting for Semester 5 1st half, and here we go to the 2nd half, which will be much more busy than previous as we will having exam, OSCE and many events to participate. My sleeping time will be reducing and tiredness will continuously top up. Going to collapse soon if not to take a break!

Looking forward to go back home on Friday! Because I already missing you all too much! ^^



P/S: I still wander around, and finding all the possibilities to make myself believe in that.

Short Exploration In KL

Friday had my worse day because of some stupid small gas fellow. I really don't understand why they just can't put themselves in our situation, fed up about that. Now we just see how our people fight back against the enemy, hope we can get that glorious victory!

Saturday also known as Agong's birthday, so I decided to explore Kepong since my friend said it's a nice place. So me alone took LRT and KTM started my journey. Once I reached, went to Carrefour with V since it is a place that very near to her house, I get some air conditioned due to the hot weather made me sweated alot. Then stayed in her house for lunch and waiting for her friend to fetch us to go somewhere else.

Our 1st destination -- Desa Park City. We can't walk along the park so much due to it's still 2pm under the hot sun, but it's really a nice place if you wanna have some place to peace your mind. There's some shops and even bistro that can hang up with besties and chit chat for the whole day and night while enjoying the view at the lakeside. We went to a shop called 32 F which selling ice shaving, it's really delicious especially when the weather is freaking hot. After had some walk in the park, we switched to Jusco Metro Prima since the Taman Botani very scary. Had some window shopping and we back to hostel afterward. Although time is short, but I still enjoyed very much! Thanks to two of them!

Today Sunday had my 1st day in ICU. Overall still satisfactory and I should study more to understand well the patient's condition. Good luck to me!

Have you shaved?

Views in Desa Park City~

P/S: 2 weeks more to have my 1 week holiday! I miss my family and besties!!
Hopefully what you said is truly to be happen in my life! =D

Learning Process Will Never Ends

Today morning had my running assessment with Ms S for this semester requirement. It's very nervous to having this kind of exam, especially for interviewing the patient with someone that observing you. Besides that we are required to do a procedure with supervision too. So she had chosen the dressing procedure for me in other ward due to my ward don't have that procedure.

I waiting for her and settle all the case study from 8am till 10am. All of sudden that green shirt women searching for me and bring me to prepare for the dressing equipment. When all done, she came and we start to do procedure 1st. Overall is good and she said that I can managed to maintain the aseptic technique which is the most important thing. I was happy about that. Then straight away we went to my interview patient room and start the interview. Unfortunately my interview was bad because I have no confident to ask questions. Luckily my patient and Ms S helps me alots from collecting the data, so I still can write all those data.

There's an encouragement from my patient. He told me that to be confident of what I doing right now. Aim a target and do everything that you think you can achieve it. I should do it better, I know I can. "Just do it!"

There's still a long way to achieve my achievement....

Specially thanks to my friendly and helpful guys =)

Be myself =)

Don't know why recently I was so damn emo. I think you'll know what's the reason. So being like a zombie but there's nothing against plants nor do I crave for the brains. Till yesterday I can't tahan anymore when I saw the facebook picture, it's made me feel like so lonely. Post a sentence to facebook, there's some people like my status. Is it a proud thing? Then my BBF, Mian asked me what happened and we were talked to phone for 3 hours. It's been a long time both of us didn't talk for so long. I'm happy for that, really. =)

Then today was my last day posting at CSSD. So went there and there's nothing to do, because no case in OT. CN chit-chatted with four of us about 2 hours. It's fun to talk with her, because we know what have need to be go through to be in this career. Then I and SM continued chit-chatted for the whole shift. Really thanks to her, it works. I feel happy, not lonely anymore. I believe I had gain the energy to fulfill my days. No doubt anymore.

There's impossible to let everyone in this world to love us, we can't fulfill their expectation. Why we must let everyone happy where we feel unhappy at all? I have my own point to care myself and others, so no one can change me anymore! I am what I am!!

I'll be happy and appreciate of what I have now and in future! XOXO


P/S: This is my special gift when posting at CSSD~ Thanks 135°C autoclave~ T.T

Baby baby~

Finished my 1 week posting at Nursery ward. What I gained in this experience is baby are so cute, straight-forward human, they will cry whenever they feel cold, hungry, uncomfortable and want pampered by the others. Baby also brings happiness to their family, I saw all the family members were so happy when they see the baby. It's an awesome feeling to see the whole family smile widely around the baby. XD

I had my opportunity to feed the baby, change diapers and also bath them whenever is daily bath or the 1st newborn bath. All these are the requirements for the clinical experiences. Haha~ I really have no idea how to handle them not to cry anymore, even more had a cute baby vomited on my uniform, so it's not a good pathway for my future undertaking. I love babies! But surely not for my career. LOL~

Start from today, I'm going to labour ward to assist what need to do during labour time. Witness a case is one of the requirement in this clinical experience. Hopefully I can make it as the opportunity is not always will be there. Pray hard to God! =)

Say bye bye to babies and here am I, the courageous and great mummies!!


P/S: Will that dream be comes true? I'll awaiting for it...

Never ends . Never lies

Since I'm back to college, everyday was so damn busy. News suddenly one short bang to my brain, I almost can't take it. But luckily I still survive and typing this facts to let u guys know. LOL~ Sem 3 result will be announce on next Wednesday and Thursday, but I'll be going for holiday after Thursday AM shift, hopefully it won't affect my X'mas mood. Case study hardly to find it as I want it simple but yet interesting for me to learn, but still need to do it. So now already decided the case and going to start work for it! Procedures... Just now saw what's the criteria that must to achieve, I can be said that if she wants us to wear uniform, I'll be one of it.

How wish I still in holiday and being a parasite in my sweet home, hanging around and sing K till midnight.. Life's hard but I still need to go through it!

Just praying and trying for the best!

I'll settle all things before my holiday comes~



P/S: Oh gosh~ 2011 is coming soon and no more "teens" for me anymore.. Also I'm getting fatter! =(
I envy of it~

Mentally lethargy

It's Saturday and I'm sitting in front of my lappie. Later still need go for work and tomorrow will start my night shift already. I don't know how many years I didn't go to shopping and enjoy the feeling of hunting new clothes for myself. Sigh~ Past few weeks was so busy till no time to go out, but luckily I have no feel any desperate of my shopaholic syndrome. LOL~ Need to save money huh. So currently just waiting for one day planning go out and shopping kau kau with Ho Ma~ Hoho~

So after night shift I'll having at least 4 days holiday. Although I'll miss the event CON Night which my college night, but I don't care anymore. I just wanna rest well and stay with family and buddies. Mentally lethargy when I'm staying here. =(

Wish my night shift good luck! =)


P/S: Still waiting....

Hee ~

Going to be a week in the ward. The conclusion is.... busy and tired! Busy of chasing the procedures, even my off day also can't rest properly as they told me that there will be something that I wanted but ended up that thing postponed and I get another procedure. Anyway I'm still the lucky one! Thanks for the God and all the people who give me luck (Ham & J.Shen in FB wishes are really help XD) and strength~ I will continue my effort to reach the peak!

My reward for the helping in healthcare awareness in one of company at Serdang~ XD

Soon there will be December and only I realize that Xmas is coming soon~ Without looking my friends' outing photos with xmas tree I would never know! LOL~ I just hope that I can get my request and back to hometown to enjoy the holiday with family and buddies~ Hmm~ Kinda greedy huh.. But it's really a long time didn't really enjoy with family and especially all my buddies. When I go back always meet up the same people, the others will be not around. Ham told me that he miss me lots and actually I'm so doubt about it, 'cause he's the one who always at home but when ask him come out got lots of excuses. LOL~ But hopefully when Sunday night we can meet up for all staying at AK one! =D


I'm proudly to become a nurse! =)


P/S: I don't need a boy who fulfill my loneliness~ What I need is a real true love~

End and Start All Over Again

Yesterday morning just had my final paper CVS, I thought it can be a big relieve but it's really really wrong. After that we were having a case study briefing which is a individual assignment that we need to complete during our 6 weeks posting, without pass up it u can just forget about of entering Sem 4. I just hope that what I want will get it wonderfully~ Just like what Ms K told us during today morning oral evaluation, "Life's not about waiting for the storm to pass, it's about learning to dance in the rain. ~Vivian Greene" We have learn to cope the situation, not just always escape from it. But I knew I am not always can do what I think of, I still not strong enough to face all the hardness. So I will just take time to conquer all these. Need booster for encouragement!

So tomorrow starting my 6 weeks posting at Orchid. Hopefully everything goes well and no more funny things happen to me anymore. Procedures all come to me and all can sign nicely in my triple 5 and also log book! Can't get my request never mind, as long as can working smoothly at there is more than enough. =)

Within these weeks, there's bunch of things happened around me. First of all, my lil sis attached to another guy. It is really give me a damn big OMG for me because this made me become the only one who is single status in my family. Sigh~ Although all people told me not to be sad about it, but I just feel lonely whenever I need somebody to talk and hug. I can't find a person actually to share that feeling. The special one I still finding for. Don't have any idea when only he will appear on me and give me a big warm hug. Sad~ I will never give up to searching for u, my dear! XD The other thing is I met a guy in game, playing some sort of couple to gain new power due to that attachment. Had a long time didn't see him online, kinda miss him LOL~ But he just 13 and I was like very old for him to be my "bf", although talked not that much but really thanks him to entertain me while I'm bored. Hope can see u online soon~

So wish me luck for the posting time and we shall meet soon, dear friends~


Currently chatting with MK in FB~ Oh gosh, MK!! U made me miss our whole gang friends arr~~ T.T

P/S: You will never understand me..... :(

斗.志

原本意志已经快要决堤，
泪与血像大雨般淌在心里，
忽然有个念头问自己，
“我真的适合当一位护士吗？”
看着自己头上的那个蓝带，
感到有些可笑.....

明明机会就在眼前，
脚步却寸步不离，
只看它白白流失.....
当机会好好把握在手，
是别人的不屑一顾，
把我给推入火炕.....

所幸贵人的帮忙，
病人的一句话，
“你打针的技术好好噢~ 痛一点点罢了~”
让我重见光明，
愉快心情，
甜在心底~

感谢你的笑容和祝福，
已注入我体内，
成了booster~

愿自己，
能成为那打不死的蟑螂~
度过这些难关吧！！


要让自己能成为那成功的护士~~

好想回到那无忧无虑的快乐~

今早突然起床， 一看手机，才8.24am。想再继续睡，可是脑海里全都是关于log book, procedure, journal和club的东西。想到很想呕吐，就决定起来继续做该做的东西。这几天的我可真的是感到很压力，当那时知道有哪些procedure是一定要拿到才可以得到green band，看着空白的555和log book，我想直到semester 2 half on block完后回去再次posting时，我才可以得到那个band吧~ 我不想认输，但随着时间渐渐逼近，还有一些很难得到的procedure没给我遇上，不要输都得要认命吧。我已经累了，心里憋得很辛苦，想哭却哭不出来~ 看来，迟早在这里暴毙死掉都没人知道....

我非常想念我亲爱的家人，我可爱的朋友和我那温暖的家~ 有时觉得自己那么辛苦又何必呢... 人生到了尽头都还不是死掉上天堂还是地狱~ 干嘛要这么拼命？？做人做到很苦啊....

真的真的，好想回到那无忧无虑的快乐~~


P/S: 请赐给我一颗不会受伤的心, 请赐给我永远用不完的勇气~ 来面对这一切难题吧！

Stage 73 Last Posting for Sem 1 & Thought about Sem 2

At last, I successfully done my all signs on today morning~ Phew~ What a relieve... I no need to wear uniform to class when Semester 2 starts~ Yippee~~ Thanks to my friends and people who is helping me during posting time! Thanks to CI and CN that help me to sign in my log book! Really appreciate it lots~ ありがとうございました~

So it's time to study for pretest which will be held on 1st day of Semester 2~ And that day is the day that my juniors will be coming and study together with us, good luck to my juniors! Wahaha~

Semester 2 will be very challenging and hectic for me! New subjects, new tutors and more responsibility on myself to carry on this new semester! Hope that I can survive within this period~ Haha~

Subjects that going to study in Semester 2:
~Human & Public Relation (H&PR)
~Pharmacology
~Fluid & Electrolyte + Burns
~Infection & Inflammation (I&I)
~Microbiology & Parasytology

And the subjects will still going on:
~A&P
~P&P
~English

I have no idea to study all these... ==" And it will start my posting on the 1st day of CNY which is 14 Feb till 3 April for 7 weeks (1st week I'm on leave for CNY :D)~~ Then back to my theory part which is my Semester 2 half from 4 April till 22 May~ Then continue posting again till Semester 3! Oh my God~ God, please blessing me always!

P/S: Tomorrow ward conference must gambateh!! :D

Stage 71 Last 2 weeks Posting

Chit chatting while waiting our meal~
Nice pose, GLL~ Haha~
Our luxurious dinner~ Make me pokai... =__="
Thanks to Sxuen, Pariskid, Lele, Vivian and S.Yin~ It's nice to eat when alone to celebrate Winter Solstice~

After that outing with my sis, I'm busy with my posting. Damn tiring and exhausted! And my signs!! Hmp!! Still have to pass up without 100% achievement. Although I did the procedure which I need it in my log book, but do it without supervised. So, what you think that I can get it successfully?? Sigh~~ Just wish me luck that before 2nd Jan 2010 I can manage to done it well with 100%~

Oh ya~ This is a good news for me and my beloved family and friends. I can go back after class 4pm on 12 Feb 2010! Then I will celebrate CNY with you all for 1 week!! Yeah~ It should be very happy for me, but now I can't smile for it. =__=


P/S: I want celebrate X'mas!!
Going back on 24th Dec~ Call me out!!

Stage 66 Recently...

With my roommates's pet -- Cupido~ Haha~
B'day girl and us~
Thumb up!
Hopefully one day can get such a big bunch of flowers from my lover~ Just continue dreaming haha~
Playing with dog at LL's house~
My simple design for Movie Day Nov 09~
Money that earned on Movie Day~ ^^

Life's change as time goes by. This 1 week plus just continuously posting, posting and posting. Tiring yet satisfied~ Signs still got a bit so need to keep it up! Gambateh~ Currently changed my posting ward from Melor Ward to Mawar Ward (the busiest ward in my hospital). Kinda not used to it since Melor is just half of Mawar, but still adjusting myself in this situation. No choice because I still need to stay at there for 6 more weeks~ But I really miss Melor Ward so much!

Yesterday went to LL's house for the purpose of eat vegetarian and also something else. Heard LL and Ying playing piano till I slept. Haha~ Too tired since just back from work. Then walked around her house and "play" with her dog, enjoying her mom's cook (delicious~) and had learn something new at there. Hope can go there again~ :D

Just took my result on evening from my mentor. Overall is okay and I was happy of what my mentor commented on me. My CGPA was successfully pass! Yeah~ I'll keep my work up! Gambateh~ Then having Movie Day at night which organized by AVA Club and this time is in charged by my group. So we choose The Eye as our movie. At first we scared no one will come but when I heard senior said no need to worry because all her group girls is coming, it just made me relieve. Haha~ Having a nice night with movie and my dear friends~ We scream and laugh in the lecture hall~ Haha~ ^^


P/S: Planning to go back on next Thursday~ Hope can get it!

Stage 64 Plan~

Foods & me~ ^^

Posting really tiring~ But the most happiest thing is I'm going back to hometown on Thursday till Sunday! Hehe~ Thanks for Sister that approve me to change my shift! It'll be a quite long holiday (3 days) for me to lepak-ing at hometown~ But that means I won't go for CON Night which will be held on 21 Nov~ For me there's nothing else more important than my family and friends~ Gather with my family and friends is the most enjoyable moment in my life! Going to use these holiday wisely~ There's lots of plan I want to do, just hope that I can manage to do all~


P/S: Praying for me that I can manage to enter Semester II successfully~

Stage 63 Back to Posting

Past two days, I went to my future ward -- Mawar Ward to request my off day for the sake of going back to my hometown on next month, December. Just hope that I can get it~ I really need it damn much~ Please Sister~~

And yesterday I knew that I can't go to CON Night because I'm going to work noon shift since I never apply morning shift for it~ Haha~ Although can't involve the whole night but still can go after I worked. Hehe~ But the thing that make me sad is my next week off day is Friday!! That means I need to work continuously for 11 days!! Oh My God~ You know that it's really tiring and exhausted if you can't rest for 1 day~ Sob~~ I can predict that I'll become zombie for the next whole week!

So... Since life's boring, I found something to play on yesterday night (actually not purposely want to play XD)~ That is --- Fashion Show~ But of course is not me as the model, Haha~ I know this game is quite lame, but it's really funny when you really bored till death~
The most hot model in TTCL CON -- Miss Goh LL~ XD
The model & designer! XD


P/S: Waiting for my next off day~ Leave away all negative things!!
Still thinking should I request that leave or not... Should I?

Stage 62 Fun Time!

It's called snake beans~~
Home made soup~ Thanks for Mun's friends that accompany me the dinner~
My tea snack~
Dinner at Times Square!
Mun and me~ BBF!! ^^

On Saturday noon after I finished my morning shift, I went to Subang Jaya USJ 1 for the sake of visiting my best friend -- Mun!! On the way to go there, that incident really pissed me off! That stupid taxi driver!! Arrghh~ Hanging around at her apartment and also find RT who also living in the same apartment and same block too! Haha~ Being talkative and knowing each other how are each other doing recently since long time didn't meet (although I and RT actually extremely tiring)~ Life at there is not exactly the same with my college although we are actually study the same course. At midnight we talked with Mian (the person that enjoyed her steamboat on that night) via phone call~ Haha~ It's nice and enjoyable since long time 3 of us didn't chat together~

Then the second day we went to Times Square with her coursemates~ Just bought some very cheap shirts because I'm out of credit. Sob~ I was back to hostel on evening since tomorrow have to work noon shift and at night only I knew that I'll going to help for my juniors' interview tomorrow. Although is tiring but never mind, as long can see my future juniors~ Haha~ But tat JT at first said going to KL next Monday and I already planned where should I bring him go, but at tat night suddenly told me that he's coming on the next day but I need to work noon shift. Kek sei~ @@

Oh ya~ I almost forget that I want to say that I get my first sign after I post on my bloggie~ Haha~ Although it might just very tiny compared to the others, but it already relieve my feeling~ I'll doing my best!!


P/S: Want to go home but it might not be the timing yet~ Should I or should not?

Stage 59 Off Day

Thursday is my off day~ Phew~ Finally can get some rest since busy for so long time. And luckily I didn't work because my ward damn busy till my colleague extremely tired~ Just stay at hostel and online for whole day, no much money to spend for shopping. Sob~

So i just clean my room especially my table, so messy till I can't stand with it anymore~ Also done with my mini chest which bought from Ikea (I bring hammer from Melaka~ Hiak hiak~) Then iron my uniforms and wash clothes, sweep and mop the floor~After all these done, continue online and download songs till midnight~ Talk with JT via Skype (Both of us bored till death, and we really kek sei because of somebody ==")~ Negi didn't online because he still working (even till 10.30pm already still haven't done~ Pity him~)

Later have to continue work at hospital. Sien~ Hope can get more holiday~ Haha~ So greedy~ Hope next week or another week can go back to hometown since my sister did going back on that time, might got transport to go back~ Hehe~
My mini chest~
Nice huh? Haha~
New look for my table~ Satisfied~ ^^


P/S: I think it's impossible huh? I don't know lah~ =.=