Mute Life

This hectic working life finally turned me into sick! Now I can't talk really well as having severe sore throat and nose block. Voice changed to mute mode, when I talked it just like a spoiled radio, but still have to force my voice out just want to communicate during working time. Dr told me I had a very inflamed tonsils, so prescribed alots of medications for me to recover back. No MC for this visit, 'cause afebrile after 1 episode of spike fever on last Saturday. Felt better after taken medications, but I do really hope that I can recover as soon as possible, so that can eat many nice and delicious food, although I'm not so strict of food that I taking right now. LOL~ Many people saw my condition and encourage me to take a good rest, but with this hectic workload and under staffs in ward everyday, which I don't even have time to go for toilet break, how am I supposed to rest well? Thanks for the powerful Dr who voiced out for our struggling, finally the superiors want to take actions regarding this. Hopefully this can make a big differences for us. *Fingers crossed*

Saw my next month planning roster, still fulled with shifts, and I really can't celebrate my X'mas and countdown as I need to work and cover for my colleagues who went for holiday. I accepted it, but I'll make sure I'll get my real holiday when CNY is coming. Will work hard for that! =]

It's bored and I really need to release my moodiness! Please get my lively life back!!


P/S: I hate waiting!! But still need to wait!! -.-

Emotional season

No doubt it's an emotional season since the sky seems crying all the time from end of October till now. My mood changed and turned to very down due to some issues happened. Remembered what I told regarding the accident? Now that fellow changed his mind and made a fake stupid police report against us just for his more income, I was so damn frustrated of what he had did for us. At first agreed of everything, but now tried to get more money for his greediness. Made my parents worried all the time, my mom can't sleep well due to this issue. I believe in Karma, he'll definitely get all the punishments of what he had did for us. May you go to hell and RIP, ****!

Then some of my close friends realize my moody and tried to cheer me up which actually I didn't showed any signs of moody to them. I'm really glad of having such a good friends in my life, who wants me to be happy at all time. But, I just can't be happy with all these happened afterwards. I can't pretend that. Why is everything seems so much difficult after I grew up? I tried to divert my focus but failed. I miss my family and friends who are always far away from me. Distances make heart grow fonder -- my true feeling after I refreshed back all our pictures in my lappie. With all those smiles and fun that we had, I wish to see you all right now, but still a long time to go to meet you all back.

I always believe all these will become much better after at all, so please don't ever down my spirit anymore. And seems like I'm going to work during X'mas and countdown 2013 according to planning roster, so no celebration for me this year. So sad about that, but who's gonna celebrate with me even I'm actually free on that time? Another sad case.... =(

By the way, 5 centimeters per second (Byōsoku Go Senchimētoru), is a 2007 Japanese animated feature film by Makoto Shinkai is recommended to watch! 

I'm in love with all these movie quotes :-

• Yesterday, I had a dream... A dream I have had since long ago. In that dream, we had yet to turn 13. We were in a vast countryside, completely covered with snow. The lights of the houses extended far into the distance, a dazzling sight. We walked on the thick caprpet of fresh snow, but did not leave any footprints. And like that... 'Someday we will be able to watch the cherry blossoms together again'. Both of us, without any doubt... Thats what we thought. ~Tono Tamaki/Akari Shinohara

• It must really be a lonelier journey than anyone could imagine. Cutting through absolute darkness, encountering nothing but the occasional hydrogen atom. Flying blindly into the abyss, believing therein lie the answers to the mysteries of the universe. ~Tono Tamaki

• The things I had to tell her... and the things I hoped she would listen to. There were so many of them. ~Tono Tamaki

• Do you know? The speed at which cherry blossoms fall… 5 centimeters per second. At what speed must I live... to be able to see you again? ~Tono Tamaki

• Every minute felt like an eternity time, clearly as if it had malicious intent, slowly ebbing away from me. I clenched my teeth, and keeping myself from crying was the only thing I could do… ~Tono Tamaki

P/S: I just need you right here by my side.. If I could just believe in miracles, I would do anything to show you now...