Mix-and-match post

Had a great time at hometown after my night shifts on last weekend. As usual gathering with family members and had a outing with buddies JS and JT. The special part was had a visit for my little sis at her NS camp at Kluang, it's so damn far and I just kept on slept in the car while my elder sis drove all the way to there. My eyes just can't stand with that long and far highway, don't know how am I going to drive highway when I get my own car, really need to train myself up. Met my little sis in the camp there, she seems to be happy when see us. LOL~ Not to say that it's a usual reaction but sometimes she just to be too cool, but still happy to see her, hope she will enjoy herself well in that 3 months. It's just a special experience to get from NS as me and my elder sis didn't go for that. Lucky for me actually although I love all those adventurous activities too.

Then back to work, hectic working life still going on, and I can't deny it. My big boss told us to be well prepared and not to get sick as next month will be even harder as less staffing, even my CNY leave which I requested seems like have to be cut down. I have no choice but just to keep myself positive that earn more money from it, then I can fulfill my dreams. With this only I can continue my path, sounds pitiful but still have to accept the fact.

And don't know why, I did a really stupid action in my whole life ever on last few day, without thinking too much or whatsoever. That moment I just want to express my feeling and really wanted to make sure that message been received. "I just want you to know" this statement really strongly input in my mind, so all those words came out from my mouth and you listened it. Until the phone conversation ended, and I started to think back, I really puzzled of what I have done for that past an hour. Guilty and embarrassed feeling came into my mind, and I can't get a nice sleep on that night. The next day I really had my "good lecture" from the fellow whom I strangled last night, I can't do much but just to laughed of my stupidity. Although nothing serious happened actually, and he did explained and consulted me so much and so long regarding that matter, but still I feel the emptiness is there. I'm truly sincerely apologize of what I had said to you, especially for those serious and heavy words I used to talk with you on that night. But you know right, all these just because of caring you, and you seems to be happy and touched because of this, right (since you said so)? So let's get things better, okay? I swear to myself that I won't be out of control anymore, never in my life ever again!

Just now had my dinner with my mentor at nearby cafe, enjoyed the live band. With my luck, I have my chance to witness a proposal from a guy to his girlfriend with the help of the girl's friends. This is my first time ever to watch the proposal in front of my eyes, although it's very short moment, but still feel happy for that couple. But I can see the awkward expression from the girl since so many people looked at her. LOL~ Wishing them have a happy wedding and happy ending for their love too!=) 

This post seems very rojak but all these are the things I wanna express out! Much more better after I type it out. Be faithful in life, 'cause my life still long way to go! =]


P/S: "Don't think too much!"  It's easy to say but hardly control your mind actually....

一生守候

王若琳 - 一生守候

作词：武雄      作曲：张朵朵
等待着你 等待你慢慢的靠近我
陪着我长长的夜到尽头
别让我独自守候
等待着你 等待你默默凝望着我
告诉我你的未来属于我
除了我别无所求
你知道这一生 我只为你执着
管别人心怎么想 眼怎么看 话怎么说
你知道这一生 我只为你守候
我对你情那么深 意那么浓 爱那么多
等待着你 等待你轻轻拉我的手
陪着我长长的路慢慢走
一直到天长地久
等待着你 等待你紧紧拥抱着我
告诉我你的心里只有我
永远爱我 等待着你
除了我别无选择
你知道这一生 我只为你执着
不管他喜还是悲 苦还是甜 对还是错

This sweet song I knew it from the movie The Last Thycoon that I watched with ILT on last Saturday. The movie is damn nice, very touching till I almost cried in the end of the movie, but still able to hold my tears. ILT made a joke of me and helped me to wipe off my "tears". Unlike the girl who sat beside me already cried how many rounds, but it's a supreme movie indeed!

How to get a women who truly love you and support you whatever you do or decide? I'm really salute of the wife of Chen Da Qi -- Ah Bao. With his husband met back his first love and protect his first love in the war, she still manage to tell him that she will stay at Shanghai with the Jeneral and let him and his first love go to Hongkong to take refuge. Can I able to do so if this thing really happened on me and the one that I loved? I seriously have no idea about it.

It's not easy to get someone who truly care of you, support you no matter what happened, especially for the one who perfectly match you. I really appreciated of what I had it right now -- so much besties who really love me, help me and be with me all the time, although we're far apart from distances. I will remember of what ILT told me, what we talked about, let us be together and fight for the best in medical line. Of course I won't know after few years later, will both of us be the person who we really want to achieve, but with our determination, we surely can make it! =]


P/S: Sometimes to be friend forever will be much better than the lover! =)

New year resolutions!

My new year resolutions just very simple: I want to earn more and more money! So that I can do and get whatever I wanted, without get others permission. Then I can fulfill my dreams, such as travelling at Bangkok with besties, buy my beloved items, eat delicious foods, treat my family well and etc. Money this matter, you can't live without it in your life, or else will get very suffer and struggling of it. I knew it very well since I grown up, "no money no talk" this quote will never disappear in my mind. So let's work it out since my ward started from next month will be seriously short of staffs, more double shifts coming and hectic working life begin! (Actually already started since I joined)

Then I wish to  improve my communication skills, my courage of confront with everyone, gain more knowledge regarding my career medical fields, know more people and have more new friends, and of course to get myself prettier and sexier! My besties GLL asked me, "Eh this time you don't wish to get a boyfriend already?" LOL I laughed after she said so. My answer for her is: just let it be, when it really come, I also can't avoid it right? I know it's too hard for me to get a guy which fulfill my requirements and seriously with my condition right now, my narrow network will be even harder to get it. Sometimes I really envy of my friends which have a lovely boyfriend who always support them and be with them, even though sometimes got arguement or fight. I felt surprised when one of my coursemate who actually getting married next week, and already registered. All of us was shocked when get the news, but still feel happy for her. Wish she will be happy forever with her hubby. Still query that whether can attend her wedding lunch since got other thing stuck on me at the same time.

Anyhow, I do really hope that this 2013 will be a great year for me and my beloved one, let's us conquer all the hardships and obstacles! *fingers crossed*

P/S: So near yet so far....