对自己的承诺！

「不要问別人，为何走出去。

　而是问自己，为何还沒出发。」

有时候旅行只需要一个念头，一点任性，一点冲动。

刚刚无意间看到别人的旅后感言，心中那热血的旅游心又沸腾了。所以我对自己的承诺，无论如何，一定要实现我那梦寐以求的背包旅行！不管单枪匹马还是两三只小猫的跟随，去哪个世界天涯海角都行！我要带上相机和背包，用自己裸眼看着世界~！（btw my eyes recovered slowly by taking its time LOL） 要好好赚钱去出发咯！

相信自己可以实现这梦想的~ 加油！

Longest MC ever in 2013!

Remembered of my last post talking about my sickness? Now it still stick with me and don't want to leave me alone. I'm still having my MC for continuously 5 days already, but yet not fully recovered. Just now went and see for my ophthalmologist for follow-up, and he gave me 2 more days MC since it still having redness and swollen, in fact my left eye started get infected too. He diagnosed me as viral conjunctivitis, which made me fall into the hell and I'm damn emo right now. Sigh~ I'm so sick of that. With discomfort of the stupid eyes, I can't go anywhere even hometown also can't just because I scared I'll spread it to my parents as it's very contagious. Even just out of the room and was about to dry up all my washed clothes also feel my eyes is burning when I was looking to the sky. So currently everyday I'm in my little space of sweet room and enjoy my darkness whenever what I did, no matter eating or watching movie. I feel like I'm just like a vampire, who can't live in bright side. =.=

All the medicines that I need to take from getting myself back to normal.

People especially all my colleagues wishes and envy of my long MC when I passed the MC to my supervisor. In my mind I was like "WTH you wish to have a unhealthy body just because of the rest day is it?". If you want the rest day just rest it well on your day off, and please don't wish to be like me. You'll regret when you have the same disease just like me.Yea, I know it's really tiring especially like my crazy working ward where there will always have non-stop admission, transfer-in or out, emergency operations, fussy patients who always think they're the only patient in the hospital, uncooperative pediatrics who always cry and refuse anything you wanna do with him/her, troublesome relatives who gave extra works for you to do, weirdo doctors who always think their time is precious but not nurses and asked for something which is ridiculous and you will feel like wanna kick him off, other departments who always rush you and never think that actually we all nurses just have two hands, legs and a brain only, and etc. Of course not everyone is like what I stated as above, but things will getting frustrated when your works just never end and they just keep on coming and coming. Somemore when you work double shift on that day. Not even a drop of water you had ever drink and never step into toilet and pee since you started work for 12 hours already, what about the lunch or dinner. In conclusion, I think because of all these, my sickness only become so severe due to my low immune system.

I just to have my healthy and beautiful eyes back! Please come back to me~~ T.T



P/S: When you going to lose the thing that you used to it, only you'll realize how important it is in your life.

Money Make Her Smile?

Hectic working life made me unable to post out what's happening on my February days life. I always seems to be blame on my job, not to said that I hate my profession but it really made my life so miserable and lifeless. Used up most of my time and working like a cow in hospital, but just earned that little pitiful salary for myself. Then ended up made myself become thinner and unhealthy, easily to get sick due to shift schedule and lack of resting time. Then also having less time to accompany my family especially my parents, less gathering and bonding time with my beloved friends, less time to build up my new network connection for new stuffs or new buddy. My 22nd years in this world sounds so pitiful, but I swear to myself that I will make a overhauled for my better future, just need to endure all the painful and suffering, the bright side will always be with me.

This year CNY celebration is getting even cooler, as my grandpa passed away for 1 year plus and my grandma still unable to ambulate by her own fully after that stroke episode. So still we not celebrate grandly for this festival, but I think even after subsequent years will still remain the same. CNY doesn't become so important anymore as time goes by, when you grew up older and bigger, especially after you step into the working life. I can't smell and feel the festival atmosphere till when I went to shopping centre where they kept on playing the CNY songs. But what I love the most is I able to enjoy many delicious and nice foods especially my mom homecook foods! Also having gathering with my beloved family and bunch of old buddies which I felt the most comfortable and enjoyable moment in this CNY. Of course I did gave a little token of appreciation for my parents and grandma, the feeling is wonderful and overwhelming when you passed over to them, 'cause that's the hard-earned effort from ownself. Also I helped my grandma for toilet bath which I feel it's usual thing as I always did in hospital when I was a student. While I taking my grandma back to living room after the bath, she looked at me and appreciated of what I did for her. A peace feeling overwhelming my heart, yea, I still feel that that's not wrong that I'm in this profession.

Thus came to my 22nd birthday which I have never expected so much from that, since last year I had few grand celebration just because I was 21st. So this year  luckily I'm able to get annual leave for my birthday, at first which supposed back to work and eventually after I talked with my boss, leave approved and I was so relieved. "Never try to work during your birthday!" -- this statement which quoted by my respectful tutor Ms K. The day before just had a gathering outing with Xiong, MK, Xian Moi, Nyamuk and S.Yin. Never thought they still celebrated with me, although no cake for that, but I'm really satisfied for all the treats they did. I received a very special present from my little sis, a blue paper which full with wishes and unknown names, it's my little sis's idea who asked her NS friends gave me wishes which I really touched of that! Then on the exact day, back to Puchong since tomorrow's morning shift, had a single Valentine's dinner with Ying at Sushi Zanmai. Life is just great with all loves around!

Then continue my hectic working life after CNY holiday till now. Between that I went back hometown once after my night shift, met up my 2 close bros JT and Bong at newly opened Starbucks. Really had a long time never have a talk with both of them. JT is going to SG and start his working life, and we'll have less time to meet up in the future. Kinda sad when he told me about this, but what to do when it comes to money is everything in this world, especially for man who need to take care of family. Wish a good luck for him! Of course I did accompanied my parents well since my little sis is not around, what a complicated feeling when actually I think both of my beloved parents stay at home without three of us together. Soon my little sis is going for college which I think she won't be staying at Melaka study. How I wish I can stay with them...

And now ended up with right eye conjuctivitis after 3 days double in a week. Don't know all of sudden and how did I get this, got two days MC and currently I'm isolating myself in my room. I just hope that it can recover soon 'cause it is very irritating when it comes to icthiness and watery redness eye. Discomfort!!


I just want my active lifely life back!! *shouting in my deep heart*


P/S: 思念就跟爱情一样是会耗尽的。无奈要分隔两地，一开始我想你想得很苦恨不得马上飞奔到你身边，再也不要跟你分开。后来的后来，我沒那么想你了，不是不爱你而是这样的想念是沒有归途的。我再怎么想你，还是见不着你，摸不到你，只是用思念来折磨自己。于是我知道，我得学着过自己的生活。