Turn Up The Luck!!

Really happened many things in this October. At first, it went smoothly as what I thought. But things never just be as you wanted. I was happily to go back hometown after my night off, celebrated one of my besties's birthday, she's the last person among our gang whom had her birthday on October. The celebration was great, we had a long time never gathered together since after Mian left Malaysia. Had steamboat in the rainy night, then headed to Home Lounge for second round. Sang songs in front of many strangers really need a huge encouragement, but still fun and relaxing.

Then shit things happened after the fun day, I found out one of my trustworthy friend who actually cheated on me. Seriously heartbroken after knew everything, I just laughed like nothing in front of the laptop, damn frustrated and felt so stupid in my deep heart. It really hard to get my trust again once anyone cheated on me, unless that people prove to me that he had changed. The next day I had my hair cut just want to get myself happier, ended up more sad just because I bang people's car on the way I went back home, accident happened, so lost money due to the compensate. I felt that everything I did just out of its way, I refused to get to know the reality, but still, I have to confront with all these. What makes me so moody still after some of my BFF really talked with me? I don't know. But really thanks to people whom always be with me whenever I'm in the deep shit hole, your support really much appreciated. Although they're physically way far apart from me, still I may feel their spirit existed around me.

So I choose to keep that secret in my heart, and continue my life. With all those scars and hardships will make me stronger, I believe in that. Pray hard that things goes smoothly, I have no more strength to keep myself tougher anymore. *finger crossed*

P/S: So in love of what you had done for me, but will this lasts longer? Really afraid that everything just vanish in front of my eyes... Although you gave me that promise, but I don't dare to take it granted. Wishing you can be with me right now, I really miss you so much.

Bitter Sweet

九月十九日出席了自己人生中最重要的典礼之一 -- 毕业典礼。与家人和同窗三年的朋友们一起见证这一刻真的会让自己很骄傲和满足，毕竟这三年来怎样千辛万苦地过只有自己知道。 接收到家人给的太阳花束和中学时期的死党们给的小小毕业熊，还有前晚未来姐夫请吃的日本料理，真的感触良多。他们就像是那灿烂的阳光般给予力量和支持，让太阳花开出最美丽的模样。当天还少不了见回自己的姐妹们，每个人真的开始散发出女人的魅力了。我想下次的大团聚就是不知在谁的婚礼上了，指日可待。哈哈~ 不过如果能重来，我真的希望自己还是个学生，还是学生生活最好的了！

然后就继续日复一日地工作，真的会发疯再继续下去，每天都被繁重的工作量砸死了，连要喝口水上个厕所都没时间，继续下去真的会引发很多疾病，真的是十分无奈。许多人都以为这神圣的使命是很好赚钱的，其实并不然。而我就对他人的朝九晚五规律生活开始有了憧憬。这吃力不讨好的使命，我开始嫌弃了。可是有个人对我说，别理会他人的想法，好好地做自己觉得对的事情，别担心他就在我身后罢了。当看到这一句话时，心里像是被打了支强心针，感动得没话说。真的很感谢他的鼓励，就因为那番话让我继续坚持到了现在。虽然有时还是会做到很火大还是很累，那时就总是警惕自己是不会这么容易被别人打败的，就这么继续挨下去了，要不然还有这么多年要我怎么坚持下去啊？

 呵呵，真的觉得自己怎么那么可悲啊？还被别人算出本人的运势会到明年二月才开始好转。天啊！！人生到处都是无奈。。。

没办法，这时候只好自己鼓励自己，希望那奖赏自己的计划真的实行！ 加油！


P/S：保持现状才是最好的，你说是吧？