But I don't know why, I feel so empty in my deep heart. It seems like I doesn't belong to anybody, anything in this world. I do really hope that someone can just come to me and comfort my fear, I'm not as strong as what I always act to. You won't understand that sense of loss after tried so hard to get that something you always wanted, in the end the result just made you disappointed. Sigh~ I'm in doubt, again. When that piece of peace will stay in my heart? Do you know, the time when they started to sparkling that colorful fireworks while we two just standing side by side and looking for the fireworks, all I just wish to be with someone that I loved, I wish someone can grab my shaking hands, lead me the way to the end. But I still failed to find that person. I wonder when that person will go into my world, my heart? Hopefully next year x'mas I won't be alone anymore~
This song "Life is like a Boat" from Rie fu which can reflect my feeling...
Nobody knows who I really am
I never felt this empty before
And if I ever need someone to come along,
Who's gonna comfort me, and keep me strong?
We are all rowing the boat of fate
The waves keep on coming and we can't escape
But if we ever get lost on our way
The waves would guide you through another day
Far away, I'm breathing, as if I were transparent
It would seem I was in the dark, but I was only blindfolded
I give a prayer as I wait for the new day
Shining vividly up to the edge of that sea
Nobody knows who I really am
Maybe they just don't give a damn
But if I ever need someone to come along
I know you would follow me, and keep me strong
People's hearts change and sneak away from them
The moon in its new cycle leads the boats again
And every time I see your face
The ocean heaves up to my heart
You make me wanna strain at the oars, and soon
I can see the shore
Oh, I can see the shore
When will I see the shore?
I want you to know who I really am
I never thought I'd feel this way towards you
And if you ever need someone to come along,
I will follow you, and keep you strong
And still the journey continues on quiet days as well
The moon in its new cycle shines on the boats again
I give a prayer as I wait for the new day
Shining vividly up to the edge of that sea
And every time I see your face
The ocean heaves up to my heart
You make me wanna strain at the oars, and soon
I can see the shore
We are rowing the boat of fate, but the waves keep attacking us
But isn't that still a wonderful journey? Aren't any of them a wonderful journey?
