Live My Life / To be continue

It's going to end year 2012, even we actually went through the world's end day, 21st Dec 2012, but life still keep on going. I still wake up as usual and continue the things what I'm supposed to do. And today is X'mas eve! Thought will working my double shift but my boss cancelled it, so I went back home earlier and now sitting in front of my lappy, which I don't know what to do except to update my blog. I still remember last year of today I had a crazy X'mas celebration with my secondary school besties. We exchanged gifts according to the number we picked up, and drank like nobody business. Even some of them drunk like a mad people, which created a funny yet sweet memories in my life. But this year, some of them not in hometown, people like me need to work, so the others already find their way to celebrate their X'mas eve. I know life always be unexpected, just sometimes and somehow, I will feel lonely and sad regarding all these. Especially when I grown up, older and older, many things will never happen as what I thought. Hmm... Did I give up my life because of this? Of course no! I still believe there's a better future for me to explore, maybe eventually will have a life that I wanted to live. Who knows what will happen next? I'm still young enough to fight for that!

So what happened recently? Finally I get what I really wanted for years -- change my phone! After many considerations and calculations, I still think that I should get this for my use for the next few years. Some of my friends don't understand why I wanted this so much as my hands are small enough to hold this phone. Actually my palm just the exact size of the phone. LOL! The answer is just simple as -- I need a phone which can entertain me whenever I feel bored, no matter of just to contact with people, surf the net, playing games, taking photos, watching dramas and etc. This can fulfill all my requirements! Although it's not that cheap, and I still have to work hard to pay back for that, but now I still feel it's really worth. Who cares of other things as long as I feel satisfactory and happy of it? Hahaha... So now I'm still a newbie for android phone, lots more to be explore!

So now have to think about my new year resolutions, and will update about it for the next post! Stay tuned!

Merry christmas and have a happy new year! =]


P/S: Eventually they will squeeze out a little time for you even though hectic life still going on, it just a matter of care and concern. Are you still care enough to bother me?

Mute Life

This hectic working life finally turned me into sick! Now I can't talk really well as having severe sore throat and nose block. Voice changed to mute mode, when I talked it just like a spoiled radio, but still have to force my voice out just want to communicate during working time. Dr told me I had a very inflamed tonsils, so prescribed alots of medications for me to recover back. No MC for this visit, 'cause afebrile after 1 episode of spike fever on last Saturday. Felt better after taken medications, but I do really hope that I can recover as soon as possible, so that can eat many nice and delicious food, although I'm not so strict of food that I taking right now. LOL~ Many people saw my condition and encourage me to take a good rest, but with this hectic workload and under staffs in ward everyday, which I don't even have time to go for toilet break, how am I supposed to rest well? Thanks for the powerful Dr who voiced out for our struggling, finally the superiors want to take actions regarding this. Hopefully this can make a big differences for us. *Fingers crossed*

Saw my next month planning roster, still fulled with shifts, and I really can't celebrate my X'mas and countdown as I need to work and cover for my colleagues who went for holiday. I accepted it, but I'll make sure I'll get my real holiday when CNY is coming. Will work hard for that! =]

It's bored and I really need to release my moodiness! Please get my lively life back!!


P/S: I hate waiting!! But still need to wait!! -.-

Emotional season

No doubt it's an emotional season since the sky seems crying all the time from end of October till now. My mood changed and turned to very down due to some issues happened. Remembered what I told regarding the accident? Now that fellow changed his mind and made a fake stupid police report against us just for his more income, I was so damn frustrated of what he had did for us. At first agreed of everything, but now tried to get more money for his greediness. Made my parents worried all the time, my mom can't sleep well due to this issue. I believe in Karma, he'll definitely get all the punishments of what he had did for us. May you go to hell and RIP, ****!

Then some of my close friends realize my moody and tried to cheer me up which actually I didn't showed any signs of moody to them. I'm really glad of having such a good friends in my life, who wants me to be happy at all time. But, I just can't be happy with all these happened afterwards. I can't pretend that. Why is everything seems so much difficult after I grew up? I tried to divert my focus but failed. I miss my family and friends who are always far away from me. Distances make heart grow fonder -- my true feeling after I refreshed back all our pictures in my lappie. With all those smiles and fun that we had, I wish to see you all right now, but still a long time to go to meet you all back.

I always believe all these will become much better after at all, so please don't ever down my spirit anymore. And seems like I'm going to work during X'mas and countdown 2013 according to planning roster, so no celebration for me this year. So sad about that, but who's gonna celebrate with me even I'm actually free on that time? Another sad case.... =(

By the way, 5 centimeters per second (Byōsoku Go Senchimētoru), is a 2007 Japanese animated feature film by Makoto Shinkai is recommended to watch! 

I'm in love with all these movie quotes :-

• Yesterday, I had a dream... A dream I have had since long ago. In that dream, we had yet to turn 13. We were in a vast countryside, completely covered with snow. The lights of the houses extended far into the distance, a dazzling sight. We walked on the thick caprpet of fresh snow, but did not leave any footprints. And like that... 'Someday we will be able to watch the cherry blossoms together again'. Both of us, without any doubt... Thats what we thought. ~Tono Tamaki/Akari Shinohara

• It must really be a lonelier journey than anyone could imagine. Cutting through absolute darkness, encountering nothing but the occasional hydrogen atom. Flying blindly into the abyss, believing therein lie the answers to the mysteries of the universe. ~Tono Tamaki

• The things I had to tell her... and the things I hoped she would listen to. There were so many of them. ~Tono Tamaki

• Do you know? The speed at which cherry blossoms fall… 5 centimeters per second. At what speed must I live... to be able to see you again? ~Tono Tamaki

• Every minute felt like an eternity time, clearly as if it had malicious intent, slowly ebbing away from me. I clenched my teeth, and keeping myself from crying was the only thing I could do… ~Tono Tamaki

P/S: I just need you right here by my side.. If I could just believe in miracles, I would do anything to show you now...

Turn Up The Luck!!

Really happened many things in this October. At first, it went smoothly as what I thought. But things never just be as you wanted. I was happily to go back hometown after my night off, celebrated one of my besties's birthday, she's the last person among our gang whom had her birthday on October. The celebration was great, we had a long time never gathered together since after Mian left Malaysia. Had steamboat in the rainy night, then headed to Home Lounge for second round. Sang songs in front of many strangers really need a huge encouragement, but still fun and relaxing.

Then shit things happened after the fun day, I found out one of my trustworthy friend who actually cheated on me. Seriously heartbroken after knew everything, I just laughed like nothing in front of the laptop, damn frustrated and felt so stupid in my deep heart. It really hard to get my trust again once anyone cheated on me, unless that people prove to me that he had changed. The next day I had my hair cut just want to get myself happier, ended up more sad just because I bang people's car on the way I went back home, accident happened, so lost money due to the compensate. I felt that everything I did just out of its way, I refused to get to know the reality, but still, I have to confront with all these. What makes me so moody still after some of my BFF really talked with me? I don't know. But really thanks to people whom always be with me whenever I'm in the deep shit hole, your support really much appreciated. Although they're physically way far apart from me, still I may feel their spirit existed around me.

So I choose to keep that secret in my heart, and continue my life. With all those scars and hardships will make me stronger, I believe in that. Pray hard that things goes smoothly, I have no more strength to keep myself tougher anymore. *finger crossed*

P/S: So in love of what you had done for me, but will this lasts longer? Really afraid that everything just vanish in front of my eyes... Although you gave me that promise, but I don't dare to take it granted. Wishing you can be with me right now, I really miss you so much.

Bitter Sweet

九月十九日出席了自己人生中最重要的典礼之一 -- 毕业典礼。与家人和同窗三年的朋友们一起见证这一刻真的会让自己很骄傲和满足，毕竟这三年来怎样千辛万苦地过只有自己知道。 接收到家人给的太阳花束和中学时期的死党们给的小小毕业熊，还有前晚未来姐夫请吃的日本料理，真的感触良多。他们就像是那灿烂的阳光般给予力量和支持，让太阳花开出最美丽的模样。当天还少不了见回自己的姐妹们，每个人真的开始散发出女人的魅力了。我想下次的大团聚就是不知在谁的婚礼上了，指日可待。哈哈~ 不过如果能重来，我真的希望自己还是个学生，还是学生生活最好的了！

然后就继续日复一日地工作，真的会发疯再继续下去，每天都被繁重的工作量砸死了，连要喝口水上个厕所都没时间，继续下去真的会引发很多疾病，真的是十分无奈。许多人都以为这神圣的使命是很好赚钱的，其实并不然。而我就对他人的朝九晚五规律生活开始有了憧憬。这吃力不讨好的使命，我开始嫌弃了。可是有个人对我说，别理会他人的想法，好好地做自己觉得对的事情，别担心他就在我身后罢了。当看到这一句话时，心里像是被打了支强心针，感动得没话说。真的很感谢他的鼓励，就因为那番话让我继续坚持到了现在。虽然有时还是会做到很火大还是很累，那时就总是警惕自己是不会这么容易被别人打败的，就这么继续挨下去了，要不然还有这么多年要我怎么坚持下去啊？

 呵呵，真的觉得自己怎么那么可悲啊？还被别人算出本人的运势会到明年二月才开始好转。天啊！！人生到处都是无奈。。。

没办法，这时候只好自己鼓励自己，希望那奖赏自己的计划真的实行！ 加油！


P/S：保持现状才是最好的，你说是吧？

Wake Me Up When September Ends

Past few days went back to hometown after night shifts, mom still came and fetch me home with her motorbike even she's sick for few days already. She didn't get sick for such a long period, I think because of her hardworking for past months. Then before I went back to KL, my little sister whom having her SPM trial exam also fall sick with high fever. Even I can't do much but just kept remind them to eat medicine and gave them water or asked them to get some rest. Recently the weather always change its mood, I just can pray hard each and everyone of my loved one can healthily do whatever they need to do. Of course I met my besties for yam-cha session while staying in hometown. Shared our own problems and our future plan for next year besties trip. Hopefully it can be reality, I really do hope I can have a vacation just to be with all my beloved friends, but it might take quite a long time to make it happen. I still able to wait patiently for that, 'cause I used to wait for everything that I wanted, just don't make me disappointed.

Yesterday night had BBQ with my sister's colleagues for my housemate's farewell. Such a long time didn't had a nice BBQ night, all the foods damn delicious, my stomach is fulled with all kind of foods. But sadly to say that next time I'll be just alone in the house, going out for lunch or dinner alone, such a lonely person I'll be! But what to do, that's called life! I can't expect people to accompany me to do everything for all the time. Ya, it sounds pitiful but I have to used to it. How good will it be if we can just make the time straight cut into the exact moment that we want, just like the comic "after 1 year.."?


Life still need to go on... Be strong and awaiting for the best to come over me! Fighting!!


P/S: No doubt you'll always on my mind, you fool!! But will you do exact same thing as mine? =P

Unsatisfactory!!

Usually night shift not supposed to be so busy, unlike what I had gone through just now. I seriously hate that kind of situation! They think nurses have thousand hands to multitask everything in that particular time, but sorry, nurses also as human being what?! I really hate those who doesn't understand the situation, but still keep on commenting or even criticize of what had you done, especially after you tried so hard to make things perfect. That seriously made me pissed off!

Damn f**king unsatisfactory~!! Sometimes I really wish I'm not in this profession, nobody will appreciate of what we done, they just know how to find the mistakes from you and straight away bombard it. How pity are us while we had actually sacrified our time, energy, meals, even love and caring for each and every patients under our cares, just to do our job well and show the caring for them. But... I think I really feel sad and pitiful of what people's comment on it. I'm sick of all that...

Perhaps I'm not going to choose this pathway anymore if I really have a choice to make... Heartbroken... Who can cure me back? =[


P/S: Hope that you can stay with me especially this time... But I know, it's impossible.. ;(

Save Your Last Dance For Me

眼看时间慢慢地在流逝，头都没回地走了。那个日子即将来临了，心越来越不舍。你从来没想过，原来越抗拒的心，它就会像磁铁般地紧紧相依在一块。心，其实很复杂，但没人看得出来。没关系，就让它慢慢走回原本正常的轨道上吧！

习惯了你的存在，那就像是即将变成了像空气般的普通存在，毒品般地慢慢上瘾，就快让人招架不住了。这坏习惯，我想是时候该戒掉了。要不然变成了烟瘾般地惯例，我可吃不消 ！

但我想我还是会想念你。不时地想念你的微笑，想念你的恶作剧，想念你的温柔，直到有另一个人可以取代那个位子。还是没办法再找到了？说实话，我其实很害怕。

看着那黑色盒子，真的能如愿以偿地到达你手中吗？我不禁担心了起来，却无法鼓起勇气找寻你。心想，如果你还记得我们的约定，就一定会找回我的。默默等待，就是现在的唯一任务。

好吧，就这样吧！怀着那珍重的心情，迎接我们最后的共舞吧！Would you save your last dance for me?

GG?

Nothing much to talk about my job, everyday seems like repeating the same things, busy with the same kind of stuffs. Although sometimes people's words hurt, and others don't seems like understand your situations, but I still able to stand strong and continue the pathway. I know, it's gonna be very cruel in working life, whether you like it or not, you still need to do it with perfection. I'm really tried my best to do it well. Just sometimes I really need somebody to support me whenever I feel happy, sad, frustrated.. That's made me feel what I did is worth. The very good person I really found is going to leave me soon, so I better don't put so much of hope on that particular person, if not it's gonna hurt me deeply.. =)

I just had a wonderful weekend with my 'cousie' when I'm back to hometown. Thought nice moment can everlasting but never thought that bad luck happened on me at last.

Past 2 days I just met an incident, been robbed by an unknown guy at my working area in the early morning while I was going about for work. I admitted myself as a person who had really slow motion response, even heard the motor sound so near to me, but I still thought that it might just one of the staff in the hospital who're going to late work.When that fucker pulled my bag and I was just fell down to roadside, only my anger and embarrassed feeling straight to my brain. Why this fucker wanna take my useless bag (for him, for me is very useful) since my Pierre Cardin bag just fulled with bottle, umbrella, biscuits and my checklist? Damn seriously frustrated man!! I was very angry and felt very painful as it hurts my hands and legs, tears came out and I just walked to ER for help. Everyone was so shocked and brought me to dressing room and cleaned up my wounds. After a big hu-ha in hospital, I went to do police report with my sister's colleague driver ambulance Pak Cik. Then informed my family and some of my close friends about this. Everyone seems very worried about me, and I felt so sorry about that. Just ILTB felt damn funny while reading my police report as it sounds nonsense and joke, I admitted. LOL! But still luckily not much injuries on me, if not I'm surely dead. So this lesson taught me to be more paranoid abit when I'm alone, if not danger will always come and find me.

This report seems like a joke but actually it's not! ><

So little update from me, hopefully happy things happened on me more and more!! I'm seriously need good luck!! =]


P/S: Never forget the things that once make you smile ❤ I'll never forget the moment be with you!

我总是一个人在练习一个人

开始了工作的日子也有快两个星期了。在新的环境下要学习的东西有好多好多，幸好遇到了愿意指导的前辈们，相信自己慢慢也会上手的。给自己个爱的鼓励！

不过一个人的生活真的是太枯燥乏味了。每天回到房里，都只面对着那四面墙和ASUS电脑。没人能再像宿舍生活般的随时吹吹水，陈群地走街吃看看了。想要说话时，却没人聆听。那感觉实在是糟透了。看着联络簿想要找个倾述的对象，却不知要找的这个人是否在忙吗；要约人出去走走，也害怕别人会嫌麻烦的要载自己一程；肚子饿了想出去外面吃，却害怕被坏人打主意而待在房间啃面包泡面。总要有人陪伴自己做些事情，但毕竟现在每个人都是为了自己而活，不会有人这么地要管我的死活吧。（会不会太负面影响了？）那黑暗快要吞噬着自己快要喘不过气来了。天啊~ 才两个星期就这样，还有多少年的时间自己要这样地过活下去？完全不能想象。。。

原来我竟是如此地害怕孤单。;(

要怎样改变现状？我不了。。。

P/S: 很多人都以为我很坚强，其实不然，我也是逼不得已的。。。

6月杂文

6月13号，纪念着这三年来的辛酸，终于在那两个小时半的考试中永远地结束了。心中涟漪着种种的不舍，是有了依赖？还是想逃避那赤裸裸的现实？在还来不及一一回味时，车子已经到达了我未来居住和工作的另一个城市。吃力地搬迁我所有的东西，草草地打扫下那布满灰尘的房间。我看着那空荡荡的房间，问着自己，这就是我以后的寄居地了？那五味杂全的感受，你也曾感受过吗？

后来我回到了家乡，每天都快乐地与家人和那一班死党到处去玩乐。期中还跟3位好友去了趟热浪岛，那热爱旅游的心又回来了。看着那一望无际蓝蓝的大海，默默在心里许下了以后一定要跟自己最爱的那个人一起去海边旅游，毕竟与爱人和与好友的海边旅游总会有非凡不同的感受。看着自己朋友圈的那对情侣的甜蜜互动，让我的想法更加稳固了。

旅游回来后又继续跟死党的聚会，从未间断过。尤其那星期六夜晚的疯狂，更是让人意犹未尽。我想自己开始中了那个毒，该要戒掉吗？过后KL朋友的来访，当了小小的导游，不过觉得自己其实更像是旅客，自己还是不太认识自己长大的城市，这样的我会不会太失败？

每晚的死党摊开心坦白畅聊时光， 总让自己更陷入漩涡中。说再多，如果没有了行动，也是白费。记得曾有人对我说，我是个勇敢有想法的成熟女生，别害怕面对将来的一切，那些经历总会让自己更加坚强，成为更厉害的人。但其实说实话，我也只想平平淡淡度过一生罢了，轰轰烈烈是很刻苦铭心，但也很累人。反复地在猜想一个人的想法，好累好累。你到底要什么，可以告诉我吗？


 7月，会是我人生中新的道路开始。祝福我自己！

P/S： 长大后，幸福快乐，总是附带着条件...

看图说故事

P/S: 不爱我，就別感动我。我很傻，会被你感动。

~ 未完，待续。

To be or not to be, there is a big question.

Whenever I need somebody to talk with, I usually thinking of some people. Unfortunately when I wanna find them and share out the problem, there's no one to stay there and listen to me. I'm not blaming them of not listening to me, I understand that they might have some important thing to do on that time. Just sometimes I really desperately need a pair of ears to listen whatever my stupid thoughts or feeling, and a warm hug to comfort me and wipe off my tears. Is it so hard to get a person to be with me of what I really want?

I don't understand. But it made me stronger and cold-blooded more.



P/S: I believe there will be a good ending for this chapter, if not let's just start a brand new chapter.

天下没有不散的宴席

上星期回家一趟，出席了Negi 的 生日聚会，还有与妈妈，婆婆和二姑一家的母亲节晚餐。很开心地见到他们，总是让我乐开怀。还有久违地跟贤妹，绵和雄的深入谈心时光，心里豁达了许多。有了这班友人，让自己有了最美的时光。在这要感谢寿星公的慷慨，有了个很爽的免费晚餐和宵夜，虽然到最后浪费了些。LOL

即将要毕业了，眼看着身边的朋友都很努力地找房间搬家买家私，心里总是有些感伤。同窗三年的朋友即将离别，回到自己该在的地方。虽然嘴里说还是可以时常出来见面，还是很不舍，毕竟并不是全部人都在同个地区，尤其是我。看来我接下来的日子可就闷死了，可以当个十足的宅女。
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希望能遇到好房主，好住宿，好工作，好未来生活！(衷心期许着)


P/S: 时间告诉我，无理取闹的年龄过了，该懂事了！！！

Thank you and congratulations

But I still wonder what love is? Hmm...

I'll never know what you want... =/

4月尾之事

上星期回家一趟，出席了我最挚爱姐妹的生日派对。原本还以为这次可以开开心心bbq吃吹吹水就好，哪知道可被亲戚们玩惨了。我, Mian, JT和Negi被逼喝了超奇怪的东西，Negi一喝就瘫在椅子上久久不能起来，由此可见功力可不是开玩笑的。 不过还是个快乐的时光~ 虽然得知了些不能相信的事实，但我还是能坚强接受的。

周日就与Mian, JT和Xiong一起游玩吃喝，好久没有这样悠闲的午后了，超级享受！毕竟每天的工作让人烦躁，能与好友一起是件享受的闲事！第二天回KL就陪陪下另一位女友庆祝下她生日，疯狂之事自知之明就好~ =]

 

你是我的太阳花~ =]

P/S: 你会是我的幸福吗？

苏醒时分

这濒临崩溃的世界，要谁来拯救？

好久没用华语写部落格了，突然心血来潮，让我不由自主地打开它来这里倾诉那郁闷压抑的心情。咳，我原本期待已久的旅行被迫斩腰了。原因有太多太多了，并不想多说。就像绵说的, "我们已不是那种说能玩乐就放肆去玩乐的年龄了。" 就算不想承认，也没办法了。只期望还会有机会吧，我想。

现在自己的状况很混乱，什么都是未知数，这让我感到很没安全感。去哪里做工，在哪里开始独居生活也不了，除此之外还有很多很多的事都没解决。真的是折磨死人了，毕竟自己是那种需要计划好了才会安心的人。原来快要毕业时才让人更加心烦。这累人的状况让我近日变得很嗜睡，我妹就说我怎么睡了这么久还会累，我想是自己不想面对事实吧，才放纵自己继续在梦里徘徊着。

在这样下去，我不会得到忧郁症吧？ LOL 希望不会吧~


快来人把我叫醒吧!!

Little update on Mx week

After management for 3 weeks, finally I managed to go back to my sweet home since I really can't stand with it anymore. Met up my beloved family and buddies, really can made my days brighter and happier. Had my da bao dinner with dad and lil sis after back from KL, then went dinner again with Mian and MK for our favorite naan, then straight away went to sing K and met up Negi and JT as what I told them before I go back. Sing K plus the extra jokes and laughter from them really released my super stressful mood.

Saturday morning sent my dad for work, lil sis for celebrating her fren's birthday, then find my mom for lunch together, as this time my mom busy with her work, I have no chance to eat her homemade food. Then shopping alone in JJ and back to home for my nap. Seriously need to recharge myself because of the management, but still not enough. Evening pick up my dad from work, and ate our dinner together in home. Night time went out with besties for yam cha section in Chatpoint Cafe. Nice environment and food! Chit-chatted and plan for our next outing when I'm back next time. Can't wait for that!


Sunday as usual is sad day as I have to go back to hostel. Highway was so jammed and many trees fall down due to thunderstorm. I was back safely, with a surprised call. LOL

Now can't wait for my last management week ends and start over again my ordinary (?) student posting life. Also looking forward to my holiday, wish my request approved! [Management can kill people!!]


P/S: Miss you miss you! =]

Puzzle

But it puzzled my mind as well =(

Busy March 2012

Office lady look for me if I'm not to choose to be a nurse ^^

As what I was expected from past, this year March definitely will be damn busy for me. Ya, indeed and that's the reason my blog since for 1st of March didn't update till today.

So I had my research and management project for 5 weeks which made me mad and nut about it. It's superb exhausted, mentally and physically tortured. But when the day we went out and present our project, everything seems very worthy. I really proud of my group 5 workpiece! =)

Meanwhile in the project was going on, I went back to hometown just for the sake of our Ham Kor's birthday celebration, also coincidentally met the day of Angela's birthday celebration too. So I managed to meet back my primary school friends, which is really glad about it. Then went for Ham's celebration in OT, drank, chit-chat and help MK to do his assignment too. Haha~ It's really weird to do assignment in such beautiful place! Unable to meet Mian as she had emergency case, Mun didn't go back too. But I'm sure that we can meet very soon!

Then done my research and management project, got my House Final exam result which is quite satisfactory, sit for my last semester exam. And I just done my 1 week management posting in the ward, still 3 weeks to go! Stress will never go away from me, so what I had did to release my stress is watch Running Man!! The best reality show I had ever seen! Totally in love with it! Hopefully that I can meet them once in my lifetime!

Currently my feeling is mixed, what I really need is to go back my home and meet my beloved family and besties! I miss them damn much!!! Sob sob~~


P/S: Finger crossed that I can get my request and thus I can balik kampung!!

For uu

"唉，李大仁，你也这么觉得吗? 当你在想念一个人时，那个人也心灵相通地回应着你的想念。这样让那小小的思念变成了会让人痛哭流涕的感觉。是不是很鸡皮疙瘩?"


我最親愛的 -- 張惠妹
作曲：Russell Harris
填詞：林夕

很想知道你近況
我聽人説還不如你對我講
經過那段遺憾
請你放心　我變得更加堅強
世界不管怎樣荒涼
愛過你就不怕孤單

我最親愛的　你過的怎麼樣
沒我的日子　你別來無恙
依然親愛的　我沒讓你失望
讓我親一親　像過去一樣

我想你一定喜歡
現在的我學會了你最愛的開朗
想起你的模樣
有什麼錯
還不能夠被原諒
世界不管怎樣荒涼
愛過你就不怕孤單

我最親愛的　你過的怎麼樣
沒我的日子　你別來無恙
依然親愛的　我沒讓你失望
讓我親一親　像朋友一樣

雖然離開了你的時間
比一起還漫長
我們總能補償
因為中間空白的時光
如果還能分享
也是一種浪漫
關係雖然不再一樣
關心卻怎麼能說斷就斷

我最親愛的　你過的怎麼樣
沒我的日子　你別來無恙
依然親愛的　我沒讓你失望
讓我親一親　像親人一樣



P/S: 只希望我并不是自作多情....

那瞬间

美丽的花朵，也只是留下那瞬间的倩影...

人类坚强到一段日子，
还是会累的....

当要个靠岸的地方休息时，
看不到那彼岸...

当想要倾诉内心的郁闷时，
没人愿意停下脚步来...

当要有个温暖的拥抱呵护着，
怀里只有小小的抱枕...


我只想要有个李大仁在我身边，
这样小小的奢求，
会很难吗？



P/S: 如果我看过你看过的世界，走过你走过的路，是不是就能更靠近你一点?

21 !!!

Yes, I'm officially 21 years old now. Valentine just passed, which mean that my birthday also just passed too. As usual this year, there's still no Mr. Right to celebrate with me. But with bunch of pretties and besties to be with me, it's really more than enough.

Last Saturday, purposely went back home just to celebrate my advanced birthday with my besties. Went to find Mun 1st then only we drove back to Melaka. At night, after having dinner and shopping with family, only I dressed up and waited for Negi to pick me up. Due to time consuming, Ham and his gf left before we reach there. Luckily Ham still knew and called me to inform me, if not I'm gonna chop his head off. LOL When we reached, there were having the football match live show. They was so quite and just stunt there doing nothing, pity them. Haha~ Xian treated me a Hoorgarden and I received the Alba watch which I already chosen last week as my present. But I never expected to have a strawberries cake from them, although I don't like strawberries, yet the taste is really delicious. Then time to feed them the strawberries one by one as an appreciation. I'm really glad that all of them really attended and celebrated with me on my 21st birthday, because as the past sure got some of them unable to make it. Of course, I'll still waiting for JT and Negi's handmade cake. Will it come true? We'll see then. =)

Then on the big day, had my classes from 8am till 6pm because of the research project. But yet we still able to rush to TGI Friday for Valentine's dinner, also celebrate my birthday too. It's really expensive, but then the food is nice and delicious. Our table really attracted all the guys to look at us, because it's really weird to have 13 pretties sat in the restaurant without any guy presence. LOL Mission completed! They also managed to make fun of me by looking me to sing a song using a tomato bottle mic, my action even attracted a passed-by lady to stop her footstep and listened my singing. Really embarrassing!! But of course, thanks to all of them, I had an unforgettable birthday!

It's time to back to reality and continue my research project. Really suffering currently, but what to do? It will end after 5 weeks later, so just bear with it!


P/S: Forever alone together = Forever together =)

Yipee~~

Duuuhh! It's been almost a month I never step into my blog. Due to the House Final exam which is the most important exam in our college to certified whether we all are qualified to become a registered nurse, so for days and nights I had been studied. It just like I used up my whole life to study what am I supposed to know how to nurse the patients. LOL But finally yesterday ended, so for now on I just need to concentrated on my research and management project, then on 14th June sit for my Nursing Board exam, and it'll end my diploma. =)

So what I did for my CNY? As usual meet up my family, relatives and also friends. It's great to be with them. I really used wisely for my 3 and half days holiday. Haha~ Also during gathering we celebrated Mun's birthday as I can't make it during her real day, enjoyed well and my purse had a hole because of losing in gambling. During working in the ward, I received an angpau from staff. Today received another from CI. Hehehe~ Thanks to all of them! I'll study hard for LJM!

It's great to be with loved one! Going back tomorrow for my big day! Can't wait for it... =)

My reunion dinner with my beloved family ♥

Handmade currypuff XD (Left: my lil sis , Right: me)

Friends For Life ♥

P/S: 我不贪心，也不等待。我找到感觉对的人，就决定了。我不喜欢左顾右盼，我的时间有限，我想用有限的时间跟另一个人过Better life，而不是用我的Life，去找一个Better的人。

The Day Before Dragon Arrives!

CNY is just around the corner, in fact that is tomorrow -- CNY eve! But I'm still stuck in PJ, and only back to home after tomorrow morning shift. Actually I'm not in the mood also, as my most important exam -- house final exam and OSCE will be held after CNY. And of course the another main reason is my CNY leave just 3 days only starts from 1st day of CNY till 3rd day. Yeap, this is because we don't have anymore leave to take, so no choice to do our 1 week posting for that particular CNY week! What will you expect for a candidate to enjoy the CNY with this kind of condition? I'm really fed up with all these!

So this the reason why I didn't update my blog for a long time. Busy with revisions and practices, are part of my life currently. I became the half dead fellow started from this January. Don't know why my heart just can't calm down, worry too much, but unable to change anything. Lame...

Yet, I still have some happy thing to share. 1st angpau for this year is from my mentor! Thanks for her kindness as she never excuse but still gave us the angpau although we all are 88 people in a class. Especially she wrote herself each everyone different wishes behind of the angpau, really touching my heart! =)

Gotta sleep now! Happy Chinese New Year to everyone! =D

Every Ending Will Bringing a Brand New Begining!

Happy new year everyone~ Finally 2011 ends and the legend of 2012 comes! I have not much special feeling toward this, as I'm going to turn an adult, time to be into the real society, get my diploma certificate and start to work forever as a nurse. A big step for my life!

So new year resolution... I had decided some of it, actually it just an ordinary statement that which part should I change, maintain or what-so-ever. Here is it: --
- To be more optimistic and grateful of what I had
- Study smart to pass my LJM and house final exam
- Get myself to be more beautiful person, no matter in appearance or immanent
- Tighten my network relationship with family and friends!
- Go for a trip!

Quite simple but not easy to achieve all these. I just want a simple life for myself for entire of my life. Hopefully it is achievable! =)

So I went for steamboat dinner with Mian, Xiong and MK on new year eve. We all busy cooked all the meats and vegetables, also shared our passion of food to each other. After that we went for yam cha at Old Town which just beside Library, it's weird to listen all clubbing songs and we're just sitting there and having our coffee quietly. Haha~ Then we started our game "Ture or Dare" after arrival of Xian. LOL~ It's really funny. Watched fireworks and thinking of many things, complicated feeling in my heart. But never mind, we have to look forward not look at back. So 2012, please be good to all of us!

My 3 servants serve my dinner XD

Prawn love from MK! XD

P/S: 从新年第一天开始，做一个简单的人，踏实而务实。不沉溺幻想，不庸人自扰。要快乐，要开朗，要坚韧，要温暖，对人要真诚。要诚恳，要坦然，要慷 慨，要宽容，要有平常心。永远对生活充满希望，对于困境与磨难，微笑面对。多看书看好书。要有梦想即使遥远。做该做的事，见想见的人，吃好吃的东西!