GG?

Nothing much to talk about my job, everyday seems like repeating the same things, busy with the same kind of stuffs. Although sometimes people's words hurt, and others don't seems like understand your situations, but I still able to stand strong and continue the pathway. I know, it's gonna be very cruel in working life, whether you like it or not, you still need to do it with perfection. I'm really tried my best to do it well. Just sometimes I really need somebody to support me whenever I feel happy, sad, frustrated.. That's made me feel what I did is worth. The very good person I really found is going to leave me soon, so I better don't put so much of hope on that particular person, if not it's gonna hurt me deeply.. =)

I just had a wonderful weekend with my 'cousie' when I'm back to hometown. Thought nice moment can everlasting but never thought that bad luck happened on me at last.

Past 2 days I just met an incident, been robbed by an unknown guy at my working area in the early morning while I was going about for work. I admitted myself as a person who had really slow motion response, even heard the motor sound so near to me, but I still thought that it might just one of the staff in the hospital who're going to late work.When that fucker pulled my bag and I was just fell down to roadside, only my anger and embarrassed feeling straight to my brain. Why this fucker wanna take my useless bag (for him, for me is very useful) since my Pierre Cardin bag just fulled with bottle, umbrella, biscuits and my checklist? Damn seriously frustrated man!! I was very angry and felt very painful as it hurts my hands and legs, tears came out and I just walked to ER for help. Everyone was so shocked and brought me to dressing room and cleaned up my wounds. After a big hu-ha in hospital, I went to do police report with my sister's colleague driver ambulance Pak Cik. Then informed my family and some of my close friends about this. Everyone seems very worried about me, and I felt so sorry about that. Just ILTB felt damn funny while reading my police report as it sounds nonsense and joke, I admitted. LOL! But still luckily not much injuries on me, if not I'm surely dead. So this lesson taught me to be more paranoid abit when I'm alone, if not danger will always come and find me.

This report seems like a joke but actually it's not! ><

So little update from me, hopefully happy things happened on me more and more!! I'm seriously need good luck!! =]


P/S: Never forget the things that once make you smile ❤ I'll never forget the moment be with you!

6月杂文

6月13号，纪念着这三年来的辛酸，终于在那两个小时半的考试中永远地结束了。心中涟漪着种种的不舍，是有了依赖？还是想逃避那赤裸裸的现实？在还来不及一一回味时，车子已经到达了我未来居住和工作的另一个城市。吃力地搬迁我所有的东西，草草地打扫下那布满灰尘的房间。我看着那空荡荡的房间，问着自己，这就是我以后的寄居地了？那五味杂全的感受，你也曾感受过吗？

后来我回到了家乡，每天都快乐地与家人和那一班死党到处去玩乐。期中还跟3位好友去了趟热浪岛，那热爱旅游的心又回来了。看着那一望无际蓝蓝的大海，默默在心里许下了以后一定要跟自己最爱的那个人一起去海边旅游，毕竟与爱人和与好友的海边旅游总会有非凡不同的感受。看着自己朋友圈的那对情侣的甜蜜互动，让我的想法更加稳固了。

旅游回来后又继续跟死党的聚会，从未间断过。尤其那星期六夜晚的疯狂，更是让人意犹未尽。我想自己开始中了那个毒，该要戒掉吗？过后KL朋友的来访，当了小小的导游，不过觉得自己其实更像是旅客，自己还是不太认识自己长大的城市，这样的我会不会太失败？

每晚的死党摊开心坦白畅聊时光， 总让自己更陷入漩涡中。说再多，如果没有了行动，也是白费。记得曾有人对我说，我是个勇敢有想法的成熟女生，别害怕面对将来的一切，那些经历总会让自己更加坚强，成为更厉害的人。但其实说实话，我也只想平平淡淡度过一生罢了，轰轰烈烈是很刻苦铭心，但也很累人。反复地在猜想一个人的想法，好累好累。你到底要什么，可以告诉我吗？


 7月，会是我人生中新的道路开始。祝福我自己！

P/S： 长大后，幸福快乐，总是附带着条件...

To be or not to be, there is a big question.

Whenever I need somebody to talk with, I usually thinking of some people. Unfortunately when I wanna find them and share out the problem, there's no one to stay there and listen to me. I'm not blaming them of not listening to me, I understand that they might have some important thing to do on that time. Just sometimes I really desperately need a pair of ears to listen whatever my stupid thoughts or feeling, and a warm hug to comfort me and wipe off my tears. Is it so hard to get a person to be with me of what I really want?

I don't understand. But it made me stronger and cold-blooded more.



P/S: I believe there will be a good ending for this chapter, if not let's just start a brand new chapter.

天下没有不散的宴席

上星期回家一趟，出席了Negi 的 生日聚会，还有与妈妈，婆婆和二姑一家的母亲节晚餐。很开心地见到他们，总是让我乐开怀。还有久违地跟贤妹，绵和雄的深入谈心时光，心里豁达了许多。有了这班友人，让自己有了最美的时光。在这要感谢寿星公的慷慨，有了个很爽的免费晚餐和宵夜，虽然到最后浪费了些。LOL

即将要毕业了，眼看着身边的朋友都很努力地找房间搬家买家私，心里总是有些感伤。同窗三年的朋友即将离别，回到自己该在的地方。虽然嘴里说还是可以时常出来见面，还是很不舍，毕竟并不是全部人都在同个地区，尤其是我。看来我接下来的日子可就闷死了，可以当个十足的宅女。
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希望能遇到好房主，好住宿，好工作，好未来生活！(衷心期许着)


P/S: 时间告诉我，无理取闹的年龄过了，该懂事了！！！

Thank you and congratulations

But I still wonder what love is? Hmm...

I'll never know what you want... =/

苏醒时分

这濒临崩溃的世界，要谁来拯救？

好久没用华语写部落格了，突然心血来潮，让我不由自主地打开它来这里倾诉那郁闷压抑的心情。咳，我原本期待已久的旅行被迫斩腰了。原因有太多太多了，并不想多说。就像绵说的, "我们已不是那种说能玩乐就放肆去玩乐的年龄了。" 就算不想承认，也没办法了。只期望还会有机会吧，我想。

现在自己的状况很混乱，什么都是未知数，这让我感到很没安全感。去哪里做工，在哪里开始独居生活也不了，除此之外还有很多很多的事都没解决。真的是折磨死人了，毕竟自己是那种需要计划好了才会安心的人。原来快要毕业时才让人更加心烦。这累人的状况让我近日变得很嗜睡，我妹就说我怎么睡了这么久还会累，我想是自己不想面对事实吧，才放纵自己继续在梦里徘徊着。

在这样下去，我不会得到忧郁症吧？ LOL 希望不会吧~


快来人把我叫醒吧!!

Little update on Mx week

After management for 3 weeks, finally I managed to go back to my sweet home since I really can't stand with it anymore. Met up my beloved family and buddies, really can made my days brighter and happier. Had my da bao dinner with dad and lil sis after back from KL, then went dinner again with Mian and MK for our favorite naan, then straight away went to sing K and met up Negi and JT as what I told them before I go back. Sing K plus the extra jokes and laughter from them really released my super stressful mood.

Saturday morning sent my dad for work, lil sis for celebrating her fren's birthday, then find my mom for lunch together, as this time my mom busy with her work, I have no chance to eat her homemade food. Then shopping alone in JJ and back to home for my nap. Seriously need to recharge myself because of the management, but still not enough. Evening pick up my dad from work, and ate our dinner together in home. Night time went out with besties for yam cha section in Chatpoint Cafe. Nice environment and food! Chit-chatted and plan for our next outing when I'm back next time. Can't wait for that!


Sunday as usual is sad day as I have to go back to hostel. Highway was so jammed and many trees fall down due to thunderstorm. I was back safely, with a surprised call. LOL

Now can't wait for my last management week ends and start over again my ordinary (?) student posting life. Also looking forward to my holiday, wish my request approved! [Management can kill people!!]


P/S: Miss you miss you! =]

Puzzle

But it puzzled my mind as well =(

Busy March 2012

Office lady look for me if I'm not to choose to be a nurse ^^

As what I was expected from past, this year March definitely will be damn busy for me. Ya, indeed and that's the reason my blog since for 1st of March didn't update till today.

So I had my research and management project for 5 weeks which made me mad and nut about it. It's superb exhausted, mentally and physically tortured. But when the day we went out and present our project, everything seems very worthy. I really proud of my group 5 workpiece! =)

Meanwhile in the project was going on, I went back to hometown just for the sake of our Ham Kor's birthday celebration, also coincidentally met the day of Angela's birthday celebration too. So I managed to meet back my primary school friends, which is really glad about it. Then went for Ham's celebration in OT, drank, chit-chat and help MK to do his assignment too. Haha~ It's really weird to do assignment in such beautiful place! Unable to meet Mian as she had emergency case, Mun didn't go back too. But I'm sure that we can meet very soon!

Then done my research and management project, got my House Final exam result which is quite satisfactory, sit for my last semester exam. And I just done my 1 week management posting in the ward, still 3 weeks to go! Stress will never go away from me, so what I had did to release my stress is watch Running Man!! The best reality show I had ever seen! Totally in love with it! Hopefully that I can meet them once in my lifetime!

Currently my feeling is mixed, what I really need is to go back my home and meet my beloved family and besties! I miss them damn much!!! Sob sob~~


P/S: Finger crossed that I can get my request and thus I can balik kampung!!

For uu

"唉，李大仁，你也这么觉得吗? 当你在想念一个人时，那个人也心灵相通地回应着你的想念。这样让那小小的思念变成了会让人痛哭流涕的感觉。是不是很鸡皮疙瘩?"


我最親愛的 -- 張惠妹
作曲：Russell Harris
填詞：林夕

很想知道你近況
我聽人説還不如你對我講
經過那段遺憾
請你放心　我變得更加堅強
世界不管怎樣荒涼
愛過你就不怕孤單

我最親愛的　你過的怎麼樣
沒我的日子　你別來無恙
依然親愛的　我沒讓你失望
讓我親一親　像過去一樣

我想你一定喜歡
現在的我學會了你最愛的開朗
想起你的模樣
有什麼錯
還不能夠被原諒
世界不管怎樣荒涼
愛過你就不怕孤單

我最親愛的　你過的怎麼樣
沒我的日子　你別來無恙
依然親愛的　我沒讓你失望
讓我親一親　像朋友一樣

雖然離開了你的時間
比一起還漫長
我們總能補償
因為中間空白的時光
如果還能分享
也是一種浪漫
關係雖然不再一樣
關心卻怎麼能說斷就斷

我最親愛的　你過的怎麼樣
沒我的日子　你別來無恙
依然親愛的　我沒讓你失望
讓我親一親　像親人一樣



P/S: 只希望我并不是自作多情....

那瞬间

美丽的花朵，也只是留下那瞬间的倩影...

人类坚强到一段日子，
还是会累的....

当要个靠岸的地方休息时，
看不到那彼岸...

当想要倾诉内心的郁闷时，
没人愿意停下脚步来...

当要有个温暖的拥抱呵护着，
怀里只有小小的抱枕...


我只想要有个李大仁在我身边，
这样小小的奢求，
会很难吗？



P/S: 如果我看过你看过的世界，走过你走过的路，是不是就能更靠近你一点?

21 !!!

Yes, I'm officially 21 years old now. Valentine just passed, which mean that my birthday also just passed too. As usual this year, there's still no Mr. Right to celebrate with me. But with bunch of pretties and besties to be with me, it's really more than enough.

Last Saturday, purposely went back home just to celebrate my advanced birthday with my besties. Went to find Mun 1st then only we drove back to Melaka. At night, after having dinner and shopping with family, only I dressed up and waited for Negi to pick me up. Due to time consuming, Ham and his gf left before we reach there. Luckily Ham still knew and called me to inform me, if not I'm gonna chop his head off. LOL When we reached, there were having the football match live show. They was so quite and just stunt there doing nothing, pity them. Haha~ Xian treated me a Hoorgarden and I received the Alba watch which I already chosen last week as my present. But I never expected to have a strawberries cake from them, although I don't like strawberries, yet the taste is really delicious. Then time to feed them the strawberries one by one as an appreciation. I'm really glad that all of them really attended and celebrated with me on my 21st birthday, because as the past sure got some of them unable to make it. Of course, I'll still waiting for JT and Negi's handmade cake. Will it come true? We'll see then. =)

Then on the big day, had my classes from 8am till 6pm because of the research project. But yet we still able to rush to TGI Friday for Valentine's dinner, also celebrate my birthday too. It's really expensive, but then the food is nice and delicious. Our table really attracted all the guys to look at us, because it's really weird to have 13 pretties sat in the restaurant without any guy presence. LOL Mission completed! They also managed to make fun of me by looking me to sing a song using a tomato bottle mic, my action even attracted a passed-by lady to stop her footstep and listened my singing. Really embarrassing!! But of course, thanks to all of them, I had an unforgettable birthday!

It's time to back to reality and continue my research project. Really suffering currently, but what to do? It will end after 5 weeks later, so just bear with it!


P/S: Forever alone together = Forever together =)

Yipee~~

Duuuhh! It's been almost a month I never step into my blog. Due to the House Final exam which is the most important exam in our college to certified whether we all are qualified to become a registered nurse, so for days and nights I had been studied. It just like I used up my whole life to study what am I supposed to know how to nurse the patients. LOL But finally yesterday ended, so for now on I just need to concentrated on my research and management project, then on 14th June sit for my Nursing Board exam, and it'll end my diploma. =)

So what I did for my CNY? As usual meet up my family, relatives and also friends. It's great to be with them. I really used wisely for my 3 and half days holiday. Haha~ Also during gathering we celebrated Mun's birthday as I can't make it during her real day, enjoyed well and my purse had a hole because of losing in gambling. During working in the ward, I received an angpau from staff. Today received another from CI. Hehehe~ Thanks to all of them! I'll study hard for LJM!

It's great to be with loved one! Going back tomorrow for my big day! Can't wait for it... =)

My reunion dinner with my beloved family ♥

Handmade currypuff XD (Left: my lil sis , Right: me)

Friends For Life ♥

P/S: 我不贪心，也不等待。我找到感觉对的人，就决定了。我不喜欢左顾右盼，我的时间有限，我想用有限的时间跟另一个人过Better life，而不是用我的Life，去找一个Better的人。

The Day Before Dragon Arrives!

CNY is just around the corner, in fact that is tomorrow -- CNY eve! But I'm still stuck in PJ, and only back to home after tomorrow morning shift. Actually I'm not in the mood also, as my most important exam -- house final exam and OSCE will be held after CNY. And of course the another main reason is my CNY leave just 3 days only starts from 1st day of CNY till 3rd day. Yeap, this is because we don't have anymore leave to take, so no choice to do our 1 week posting for that particular CNY week! What will you expect for a candidate to enjoy the CNY with this kind of condition? I'm really fed up with all these!

So this the reason why I didn't update my blog for a long time. Busy with revisions and practices, are part of my life currently. I became the half dead fellow started from this January. Don't know why my heart just can't calm down, worry too much, but unable to change anything. Lame...

Yet, I still have some happy thing to share. 1st angpau for this year is from my mentor! Thanks for her kindness as she never excuse but still gave us the angpau although we all are 88 people in a class. Especially she wrote herself each everyone different wishes behind of the angpau, really touching my heart! =)

Gotta sleep now! Happy Chinese New Year to everyone! =D

Every Ending Will Bringing a Brand New Begining!

Happy new year everyone~ Finally 2011 ends and the legend of 2012 comes! I have not much special feeling toward this, as I'm going to turn an adult, time to be into the real society, get my diploma certificate and start to work forever as a nurse. A big step for my life!

So new year resolution... I had decided some of it, actually it just an ordinary statement that which part should I change, maintain or what-so-ever. Here is it: --
- To be more optimistic and grateful of what I had
- Study smart to pass my LJM and house final exam
- Get myself to be more beautiful person, no matter in appearance or immanent
- Tighten my network relationship with family and friends!
- Go for a trip!

Quite simple but not easy to achieve all these. I just want a simple life for myself for entire of my life. Hopefully it is achievable! =)

So I went for steamboat dinner with Mian, Xiong and MK on new year eve. We all busy cooked all the meats and vegetables, also shared our passion of food to each other. After that we went for yam cha at Old Town which just beside Library, it's weird to listen all clubbing songs and we're just sitting there and having our coffee quietly. Haha~ Then we started our game "Ture or Dare" after arrival of Xian. LOL~ It's really funny. Watched fireworks and thinking of many things, complicated feeling in my heart. But never mind, we have to look forward not look at back. So 2012, please be good to all of us!

My 3 servants serve my dinner XD

Prawn love from MK! XD

P/S: 从新年第一天开始，做一个简单的人，踏实而务实。不沉溺幻想，不庸人自扰。要快乐，要开朗，要坚韧，要温暖，对人要真诚。要诚恳，要坦然，要慷 慨，要宽容，要有平常心。永远对生活充满希望，对于困境与磨难，微笑面对。多看书看好书。要有梦想即使遥远。做该做的事，见想见的人，吃好吃的东西!

Christmas Is Coming To Town!

This Christmas eve, me with all my crazy bunch of friends went to OverTime for the celebration! Planned for long time ago, and luckily we managed to get a table for fitting all of us in such a crowded festive season. Although it took a long time to reach destination due to the jammed, yet we still can played happily and joyful! After countdown we started our exchange Christmas gifts section as what we are really looking forward of, and I got a couple cups from Negi. A big sweat from my forehead when I saw that, who am I going to share with la?? He laughed and said, "You can give to XXX and use la! Hahaha~ " I think to wait my Mr. Right to use that cup, still a long time to go. Never mind then, watched everyone so happy and enjoyed is more than enough. Then the funny section came when we went for supper, Xian get drunk and started to act different than usual. We all get shocked, laughed and also angry of what she did. But still is a great memories. Haha~ Still got next chance to let her drunk? No way!!

On Christmas, I and my lil sister went for shopping in new JJ. Night time yam cha section with JT, Xiong, MK and late-comer Mian. Non-stop talked about yesterday thingy and also our planning for new year eve and next year. Hopefully it really work out!

So back to college continue Community Nursing posting and finally get what I needed for the Sem 6 requirement. A big relief for myself! Result took just now, I'm satisfied of what I achieved. At least got improvement, this is what I wanted for myself! So for the last semester, must keep it up! So now can really looking forward for the countdown 2012 with no worries! Thank God! =D

Thanks for all the X'mas gifts!

P/S: Flu and cough must faster get away from me! Shoo shooo~~

'Mix and Match'

Working in the hospital definitely may made you see through this world. I had seen so many kind of human being while I'm doing my practical for this 2 years and 6 months. Depressed, arrogant, egoism, cheerful, talkative, anti-social, opinionated, urbane... All these made me to think of what kind of human being should I be. So sharpen my patience, lessen my negative words, speaks my words politely, eat healthy diet, always bring my smile toward others -- this is what I turned to be currently. Maybe you all still wondering did I turned into that way, perhaps I just show that characteristics during working, but definitely I changed after at all. I know myself better than others.

So what's all the point I talked as above? Nothing special but just to reflect myself compared past and present, also compared to others. As you know new year is just the corner, I need to set some resolutions for the brand new year. But it still too early to show what I really want to achieve for the next 21st year, my existence in this world. Haha. Just stay tuned.

These few weeks as usual, busy with all those posting and settle down my procedures. Exhausted, but when I'm thinking of what's going to happen if this and that cannot turned as what I wish, I still hold my breathe and continue the job. Now still left 2 to be achieved, just see will it end as what I wish. Hopefully it does.

And finally is the day I waited for so long -- Christmas! It means I can go back to my sweet home and meet all my beloved people! Can't wait for all that~

Till end, I don't know why I wanna post this rojak post. Too bored to write journal. XD

Happy Winter Solstice! Merry Christmas!

It's RM2.50 to exchange my "Happy Winter Solstice" mood~

P/S: All I want for Christmas is YOU!!! =D

December - It's X'mas Season!

Sunday went to Berjaya Times Square Hotel with my sis and her bf to have high-tea buffet which last time I won the voucher in the event. Big apple restaurant, which I was thinking of another big apple donuts LOL, is a nice place to have some romantic lunch with your beloved. I love the beef so much! There also having live performance by singing oldies. But I don't think I have another chance to go there anymore unless I found richie. Hahaha~


After that we went shopping as my sister needs some accessories for her bbf's wedding. All the shopping malls decorated so nice, everywhere just having Christmas astmosphere~ I'm really in love with Christmas season!
Can't wait to celebrate Christmas with my beloved buddies! But I still can't get the Christmas present~ Headache...



P/S: There's no need to rush. If something is meant to be, it will happen, in the right time, with the right person, for the best reason.

心有余力 而力不足

十二月的第一天
天灰灰
后来还下了一场雨
冲凉后的自己
觉得好冷好冷
只好随手拿了件外套
让自己暖和了身子
但心却很冷
少了你的拥抱
怎样都没办法
温暖自己的心房

如果我说想爱
未经过你的同意
那也只是我的一厢情愿
强逼你的同意
不是会太卑微了自己吗

所以我
依旧惯用自己的法子
让自己麻木吧
不再抱任何期望

只盼上天的眷顾
好让天空不再哭泣了

想你，几许悲凉，
想你，几许哀伤，
想你，几许执着，
想你，几许温柔，
想你，在你看不到的方向，
我的幸福，
只是那昙花一现般的忧伤。

—— 想你，是我孤单的幸福。

End of Nov -- It's not the end, indeed

Last week was the busiest week as we were having final exam for Sem 5. Everyday was cracked my brain to know all the knowledge and prayed hard that questions was not that hard. Finally it ended and we started to worry about procedures and House Final exam which will coming in next year, also LJM exam too! Although extremely anxious but still need to go through it when it comes, so just be prepared and let's fight for the best!

So as usual after exam went to MV for 'You are the apple of my eye' movie from Giddens, really awesome and touching. I really miss those days in secondary school, although my secondary school times didn't involved in any love case. LOL~ And of course I went back home just to relax myself, hang out with family and buddies. It will and always to calm and comfort me whenever I feel sad and happy. That's what we called as true friends. Thanks for all of them Especially to my dearest ji mui Mian! Heart her the most! Just pray hard that what is on my mind will happen~

Love the singing and guitar in the air on Saturday night~

After few months didn't touch the utensils, my homemade cook! XD

Now back to posting life, wish to get all my crosses in my log book. If not I'll be in a big trouble. Fingers crossed!

真正的爱情需要等待，谁都可以说爱你，但不是人人都能等你。