Turn Up The Luck!!

Really happened many things in this October. At first, it went smoothly as what I thought. But things never just be as you wanted. I was happily to go back hometown after my night off, celebrated one of my besties's birthday, she's the last person among our gang whom had her birthday on October. The celebration was great, we had a long time never gathered together since after Mian left Malaysia. Had steamboat in the rainy night, then headed to Home Lounge for second round. Sang songs in front of many strangers really need a huge encouragement, but still fun and relaxing.

Then shit things happened after the fun day, I found out one of my trustworthy friend who actually cheated on me. Seriously heartbroken after knew everything, I just laughed like nothing in front of the laptop, damn frustrated and felt so stupid in my deep heart. It really hard to get my trust again once anyone cheated on me, unless that people prove to me that he had changed. The next day I had my hair cut just want to get myself happier, ended up more sad just because I bang people's car on the way I went back home, accident happened, so lost money due to the compensate. I felt that everything I did just out of its way, I refused to get to know the reality, but still, I have to confront with all these. What makes me so moody still after some of my BFF really talked with me? I don't know. But really thanks to people whom always be with me whenever I'm in the deep shit hole, your support really much appreciated. Although they're physically way far apart from me, still I may feel their spirit existed around me.

So I choose to keep that secret in my heart, and continue my life. With all those scars and hardships will make me stronger, I believe in that. Pray hard that things goes smoothly, I have no more strength to keep myself tougher anymore. *finger crossed*

P/S: So in love of what you had done for me, but will this lasts longer? Really afraid that everything just vanish in front of my eyes... Although you gave me that promise, but I don't dare to take it granted. Wishing you can be with me right now, I really miss you so much.