Stupor!!

The longer I living in this place, I feel more disgusting about all those human "kindly heart" attitudes. Are they having their own brain to think or say the better words? Please put down your ego la. You think who are you in this earth?? For me, you may be my sweetest honey, or the bullshitter ever in my life!!

Why should I always kindly wasting my precious time to comfort you or being a counselor whenever you are angry of something that stupid small matters?? Why should I always protect you from others while you are the one who does not know anything yet still shooting me of what am I trying to achieve?? Please don't put your perception into my situation, you have nothing can trying to criticize my action and thought! You don't even know me well also!!


I HAD ENOUGH OF THAT!!!

I Don't Wanna Miss a Thing..

Last last Saturday, went out with my 2 boyfriends whom came to KL for their new HTC phone. So I'm just be a tour guide to bring them go whenever they wanna go. We went to the whole shopping centres around Bukit Bintang just to buy phone accessories and Nike shoes. Haha~ Never felt so tired before in my shopping time, maybe this time is not because of I want to buy things, so I will felt my legs is not longer mine anymore. LOL~ But I'm still enjoyed to be with them since we had a long time didn't go shopping together, every time we met just for tea and chit chatting.

Sunday after woke up, doing the things that I unusual to do since there's no electricity in hostel. Read comic and play pokers with friends, a new experiences in my hostel life. Haha~ I even make up myself without any electricity, then I went for my hospital dinner in Subang. It's a nice night because we won a hamper and I managed to wear my high heels without falling down. LOL~

After that, I started to feel so sick especially from Tuesday till Thursday. High fever 39 degree celcius with chills and excessive flu made me worst. Seek for doctor due to so many of my group girls get Inf A positive, luckily mine case is different. Yet it still costly and I get my MC on Wednesday. Then another lucky thing happened on me, I get my sudden 3 days holiday to get myself well in my home. The first two days was sucks, headache and fever don't ever bother me to get it down. But antibiotic Cefuroxime works after that, it's a big relief for me.

After get my health back, met back Mian, Mun, Xian and MK in Brother John on Friday night. I and my sis had a big funny case before Xian and MK came and fetch me. Stupid cockroachs disturbed in my house, it flied here and there and made a damn big shock for us. Luckily my hero Xian and MK rescued us from the danger. I think this will be the funniest thing happened in this brand new year.

Then holiday ends, and I back to PJ, started my classes again. But currently in my mind, I just think about CNY and new clothes which I haven't finish buy yet. Gosh~ Make me concentrate in studies!

Can't wait for the CNY! =D

My two handsome boyfriends ♥

Roommates L8R8!

Hamper and happy me~ LOL

Ended up, my damn sick look~ LOL

P/S: Nodame Cantabile is the best ever Japanese drama I had ever watched!!

New Year 2011 Resolutions

It's 4th Jan 2011! Thought wanna update on 31st Dec 2010, but I'm stuck in my case study and assignments, also pre-test for Sem 4. So till today after all things settle up, only I can think about my new year resolutions.

Think back to 2010, I did lots of things especially during in college. I did passed through the most difficult time when I'm in a big trouble. Although now I still feel that's the dirtiest part in my past memory, but I think without that, I won't be able to be a clear mind of what I wanna be for the best of myself. Yes, a great applause for myself to go through it! And also, I'm being more closer to some of my collegemates, it's a greatest part to be knowing all of you. Don't ever give up of our dream to become a future knowledgeable registered staff nurses! About family and my besties, we all are getting busier of our studies, although I miss you all damn much and can't always meet up together, but you all know I'll be the person who always support you all whenever you all did. =)

So... For this newly year which I'll not "teens" anymore, I wanna set some targets to change myself for the better one. Currently I just think some of it, will add on once I targeted.

New year resolutions for 2011....
- Study SMART!
- Be more cheerful, cool and non-emotional anymore! Laugh more!
- Gain more relationships... (Don't think too much!)
- Still searching for the special one!
- Continue ♥ my family, besties and ji muis~
- Change my style and appearance to be more beautiful!
- Save money for our promise! Heehee~

2011, be more happy and enjoyable!

Anyway... Merry xmas!

Yesterday I went for countdown with my besties! It's wonderful since we had a long time didn't meet each other. Although I had been "shoot" from JT, Negi, Mun, Xian they all at McD supper time. But I feel glad to be a part of them as family, not just a best friend~

But I don't know why, I feel so empty in my deep heart. It seems like I doesn't belong to anybody, anything in this world. I do really hope that someone can just come to me and comfort my fear, I'm not as strong as what I always act to. You won't understand that sense of loss after tried so hard to get that something you always wanted, in the end the result just made you disappointed. Sigh~ I'm in doubt, again. When that piece of peace will stay in my heart? Do you know, the time when they started to sparkling that colorful fireworks while we two just standing side by side and looking for the fireworks, all I just wish to be with someone that I loved, I wish someone can grab my shaking hands, lead me the way to the end. But I still failed to find that person. I wonder when that person will go into my world, my heart? Hopefully next year x'mas I won't be alone anymore~

This song "Life is like a Boat" from Rie fu which can reflect my feeling...

Nobody knows who I really am
I never felt this empty before
And if I ever need someone to come along,
Who's gonna comfort me, and keep me strong?

We are all rowing the boat of fate
The waves keep on coming and we can't escape
But if we ever get lost on our way
The waves would guide you through another day

Far away, I'm breathing, as if I were transparent
It would seem I was in the dark, but I was only blindfolded

I give a prayer as I wait for the new day
Shining vividly up to the edge of that sea

Nobody knows who I really am
Maybe they just don't give a damn
But if I ever need someone to come along
I know you would follow me, and keep me strong

People's hearts change and sneak away from them
The moon in its new cycle leads the boats again

And every time I see your face
The ocean heaves up to my heart
You make me wanna strain at the oars, and soon
I can see the shore

Oh, I can see the shore
When will I see the shore?

I want you to know who I really am
I never thought I'd feel this way towards you
And if you ever need someone to come along,
I will follow you, and keep you strong

And still the journey continues on quiet days as well
The moon in its new cycle shines on the boats again

I give a prayer as I wait for the new day
Shining vividly up to the edge of that sea

And every time I see your face
The ocean heaves up to my heart
You make me wanna strain at the oars, and soon
I can see the shore

We are rowing the boat of fate, but the waves keep attacking us
But isn't that still a wonderful journey? Aren't any of them a wonderful journey?

I still need to face the cruel reality....

Never ends . Never lies

Since I'm back to college, everyday was so damn busy. News suddenly one short bang to my brain, I almost can't take it. But luckily I still survive and typing this facts to let u guys know. LOL~ Sem 3 result will be announce on next Wednesday and Thursday, but I'll be going for holiday after Thursday AM shift, hopefully it won't affect my X'mas mood. Case study hardly to find it as I want it simple but yet interesting for me to learn, but still need to do it. So now already decided the case and going to start work for it! Procedures... Just now saw what's the criteria that must to achieve, I can be said that if she wants us to wear uniform, I'll be one of it.

How wish I still in holiday and being a parasite in my sweet home, hanging around and sing K till midnight.. Life's hard but I still need to go through it!

Just praying and trying for the best!

I'll settle all things before my holiday comes~



P/S: Oh gosh~ 2011 is coming soon and no more "teens" for me anymore.. Also I'm getting fatter! =(
I envy of it~

Mentally lethargy

It's Saturday and I'm sitting in front of my lappie. Later still need go for work and tomorrow will start my night shift already. I don't know how many years I didn't go to shopping and enjoy the feeling of hunting new clothes for myself. Sigh~ Past few weeks was so busy till no time to go out, but luckily I have no feel any desperate of my shopaholic syndrome. LOL~ Need to save money huh. So currently just waiting for one day planning go out and shopping kau kau with Ho Ma~ Hoho~

So after night shift I'll having at least 4 days holiday. Although I'll miss the event CON Night which my college night, but I don't care anymore. I just wanna rest well and stay with family and buddies. Mentally lethargy when I'm staying here. =(

Wish my night shift good luck! =)


P/S: Still waiting....

Hee ~

Going to be a week in the ward. The conclusion is.... busy and tired! Busy of chasing the procedures, even my off day also can't rest properly as they told me that there will be something that I wanted but ended up that thing postponed and I get another procedure. Anyway I'm still the lucky one! Thanks for the God and all the people who give me luck (Ham & J.Shen in FB wishes are really help XD) and strength~ I will continue my effort to reach the peak!

My reward for the helping in healthcare awareness in one of company at Serdang~ XD

Soon there will be December and only I realize that Xmas is coming soon~ Without looking my friends' outing photos with xmas tree I would never know! LOL~ I just hope that I can get my request and back to hometown to enjoy the holiday with family and buddies~ Hmm~ Kinda greedy huh.. But it's really a long time didn't really enjoy with family and especially all my buddies. When I go back always meet up the same people, the others will be not around. Ham told me that he miss me lots and actually I'm so doubt about it, 'cause he's the one who always at home but when ask him come out got lots of excuses. LOL~ But hopefully when Sunday night we can meet up for all staying at AK one! =D


I'm proudly to become a nurse! =)


P/S: I don't need a boy who fulfill my loneliness~ What I need is a real true love~