- Praying -

Now don't know what to do....
Just worry and down....
Quite fed up of my stupid and innocent act...
What can I do is.....
Pray for myself for the sake of getting my sign~

Believe in myself that I can make it!!!
Yes, you can do it!!


P/S: Left 9 weeks to back to on block....

Stage 61 Balik Kampung~

Xia and me shopping at Ikano and The Curve~
At Ikea on Friday, my second week off day~
The sky at Melaka~ Damn nice~

Finally manage to go back hometown on Sunday evening~ I was extremely happy because miss my home so much!!! After finish working, I straight away go back bath and took my bags to take Puduraya~ This time is my first time go back to hometown alone, although a bit worry but still reached Melaka safely about 6.45pm. Hehe~ Having dinner with my younger sister and dad, then went to Station 1 cafe lim teh with my buddies~ 4 of us chit-chatted and laughed over there, haha~ But I still can't get my cake that JT had promised me to do for me because of some communication problem, kek sim~ Because Mian were having quiz on her most important subject on the next following day, so we went back earlier than usual time we went back. The second day went out buy foods with my sister at Mydin, then went out with my dad for some purpose, but unfortunately didn't manage to do it, that place didn't open, issh~ Ate my homecook dishes and start to pack things and go back to my busy life-- hostel, with my sister and her boyfriend~ How could I wish I can stay at my home longer~~ Sob~

Then the incident that happened after I went back to hostel, I had no comment about it~ Because it was too subjective to judge something that anyone did~ Your opinion might not be the same with majority, but does it mean it is wrong? You did something that actually you cannot do it, but does it mean that you really wrong of what you had did? There is no particular answer for all these. Haiz~ I really hope that I can do well and peacefully within these years~


P/S: Hope can successful meet Mun on this Saturday~ Miss her so much~

Stage 60 Bad Luck Please Go Away!!

These few days really very bad luck!! Lost money, pay extra money for not necessary things, sign still haven't get yet....... Arrgghh~~ What I want the things, it just slip away from me... I feel that I can't grab it anymore~ I scared it will leave me forever~ All negative thinking just appear on my brain!! Now I feel that what I pass through now is just made me useless.... Preventing it's okay but actually it's not!! Want to cry but can't cry out~ Feel so desperate~ I wanna go home -- my shelter!! So please just approve my request~ I wanna GO HOME no matter what!!!


P/S: Who can save me?? 试图找避风港却找不到，我不知道该怎么办了~

|如果有选择，我宁愿停留在那段时光~|

Stage 59 Off Day

Thursday is my off day~ Phew~ Finally can get some rest since busy for so long time. And luckily I didn't work because my ward damn busy till my colleague extremely tired~ Just stay at hostel and online for whole day, no much money to spend for shopping. Sob~

So i just clean my room especially my table, so messy till I can't stand with it anymore~ Also done with my mini chest which bought from Ikea (I bring hammer from Melaka~ Hiak hiak~) Then iron my uniforms and wash clothes, sweep and mop the floor~After all these done, continue online and download songs till midnight~ Talk with JT via Skype (Both of us bored till death, and we really kek sei because of somebody ==")~ Negi didn't online because he still working (even till 10.30pm already still haven't done~ Pity him~)

Later have to continue work at hospital. Sien~ Hope can get more holiday~ Haha~ So greedy~ Hope next week or another week can go back to hometown since my sister did going back on that time, might got transport to go back~ Hehe~
My mini chest~
Nice huh? Haha~
New look for my table~ Satisfied~ ^^


P/S: I think it's impossible huh? I don't know lah~ =.=

Stage 58 Posting In Hospital

My Sunday dinner at Bar.B.Q Plaza, Sunway Pyramid~ Very nice~
The ingredients~
Bacon is really delicious~ Yummy~

From Sunday morning, I started to posting in the hospital~ The first ward that I went is Melor Ward~ Although just 5 rooms in this ward but each room have 4 beds, so actually can be said it's quite big~ And this ward is attached to HDU (High Dependence Unit), but doesn't have too much connection with our ward, just you have to pass through our ward to go there.

So... You ask me what is my feeling of posting? Conclusion is tiring yet challenging~ Tiring is because lots and lots of things come while busy doing other things, so have to run here and there. After work I always feel so tired and easily to get sleep. Haha~ Challenging is because everyday people come in and go out from the ward, different type of patients and cases I have to face. It's not easy to handle~ Good and bad things always happen around there~ What I happy about that is the patients that I care always thanks to me and give me some courage to do better and better~ When see they discharge from ward, I feel very happy and relieve~ I think I didn't make a mistake to choose this career~ Although still got something that made me so upset and down~ But it won't affect~

Currently I haven't get the sign yet although some of my coursemates already get, but I'm not that much worry about that (still got abit worry~ Lolx~), because I believe that I can manage to get all of the signs with blessing of God~ Wink~

Now I got lots of free time to do my own things~ I had my mind of what should I do during this posting period~ Hehe~ Wish me luck in this period~ ^^


P/S: Chatting with you all via Skype really make me happy~ It just make me feel like you all are always be with me~ :D

Stage 57 Exam Week Part 2

Study!!
Our group little garden~
Help my coursemates to do Kolam~
My design~ Haha~
Our group Kolam won 3rd prize on Kolam competition~ Congrats~
After exam go out with my coursemates~

From Monday till Thursday I was having all my theory exam - A&P, P&P, EH & Nutrition, and the last day was Psychology~ Actually all these if you really study well, then you sure can manage to answer all of the questions. I really put a lot of effort to study and sit for the exam. No internet, no laptop, less sleeping time and more time with all my books and notes~ Just hope that the result won't make me disappointed~ The result will be release on November and it will send it to my parents. Haha~ I hope I won't get a phone call from my mom that actually want to blame me. Lolx~ And also thanks for all my family and friends who are always supporting me~ Haha~

After Psychology exam, we were having a briefing for posting from our mentor. Posting is not a easy job~ We have to get the procedure sign from CI, CN, Sister, staff nurse or tutor. And we need to write reflective journal that what we have learn from this posting every week. Although lazy to do but still have to do so. Anyway gambateh!! Night went out with coursemates, actually we wanted go to pasar malam, but because of my misunderstanding, we went to wrong place~ OMG~ Luckily there's still got things that we can do for~ Sorry to my friends~

Friday was having an evaluation with my mentor. 94 of us sit with a big circle at Multipurpose Hall and shared our feelings to each other. It was a nice moment when you listen what they said. We sure can do it well, Group 69!! After that I help my friends to clean demo room and sent the dirty linens to hospital. We rest in our own room till 4pm and I was started to step out of the college and went to Puduraya to take bus and back to hometown~

7.40pm I arrived to Melaka~ My parents took me for dinner and then I went out with my buddies~ We played bowling again, but this time was playing 4 games. My hands till the end become so lenguh~ After finish playing, we went for supper and chit-chatting at there~ Haha~ It's really enjoyable when I'm with them~ Back home on 2am and I straight away go and sleep, too tired~ The next day went out and cut my hair~ Then noon went to Jusco to buy something and meet my ex-colleague back~ Back home and pack things, then take 6pm bus go back to hostel because tomorrow I'm going to posting~ Is kinda rush, but doesn't it called as life?

Last but not least, our photo at bowling centre~ Kinda blur but I love it~ :D


P/S: Posting Gambateh~~

Stage 56 Exam week Part 1

At Zen Secret Recipe Cafe, Sunway Pyramid on Sunday Night~
Revision for English exam~
My supper which made by Sam~ Very nice~ Yummy!!
Eating my favorite ice-cream while going back to hostel after buying bus ticket for going back to hometown~~ ^.^

These two weeks are going to sit all my final exams, for this week is English Communication and Proficiency (Monday and Tuesday), OSCE theory station (Wednesday) and OSCE which is today. Overall, hmm.... Don't know what to say. Just know that I was really tiring and stressful of all these. OSCE is passed except for one of the station -- BP station. Sigh~ So moody about that. I was too nervous when took OSCE exam since I was the last group to take the exam, I already waited for at least 5 hours to take that half-hour exam. Just hope that my next week which is just 4 days for 4 subjects -- A&P, P&P, EH & Nutrition and Psychology will be better and better!

Now my throat is so painful and even got my nightmare -- flu too. I think if I'm not going to take a good care of myself, in the end will become... I wear the mask with blur blur look going to the exam hall and taking all the final papers which is really need to squeeze my brain hardly. And might will bring along the bacteria to hospital for posting~ I'll posting for 12 weeks from 18 Oct 2009 till 3 Jan 2010~ Haiz~ It's gonna make me crazy~ I hate flu!! =="



P/S: Going back on next Friday! :D