New Year 2011 Resolutions

It's 4th Jan 2011! Thought wanna update on 31st Dec 2010, but I'm stuck in my case study and assignments, also pre-test for Sem 4. So till today after all things settle up, only I can think about my new year resolutions.

Think back to 2010, I did lots of things especially during in college. I did passed through the most difficult time when I'm in a big trouble. Although now I still feel that's the dirtiest part in my past memory, but I think without that, I won't be able to be a clear mind of what I wanna be for the best of myself. Yes, a great applause for myself to go through it! And also, I'm being more closer to some of my collegemates, it's a greatest part to be knowing all of you. Don't ever give up of our dream to become a future knowledgeable registered staff nurses! About family and my besties, we all are getting busier of our studies, although I miss you all damn much and can't always meet up together, but you all know I'll be the person who always support you all whenever you all did. =)

So... For this newly year which I'll not "teens" anymore, I wanna set some targets to change myself for the better one. Currently I just think some of it, will add on once I targeted.

New year resolutions for 2011....
- Study SMART!
- Be more cheerful, cool and non-emotional anymore! Laugh more!
- Gain more relationships... (Don't think too much!)
- Still searching for the special one!
- Continue ♥ my family, besties and ji muis~
- Change my style and appearance to be more beautiful!
- Save money for our promise! Heehee~

2011, be more happy and enjoyable!

Anyway... Merry xmas!

Yesterday I went for countdown with my besties! It's wonderful since we had a long time didn't meet each other. Although I had been "shoot" from JT, Negi, Mun, Xian they all at McD supper time. But I feel glad to be a part of them as family, not just a best friend~

But I don't know why, I feel so empty in my deep heart. It seems like I doesn't belong to anybody, anything in this world. I do really hope that someone can just come to me and comfort my fear, I'm not as strong as what I always act to. You won't understand that sense of loss after tried so hard to get that something you always wanted, in the end the result just made you disappointed. Sigh~ I'm in doubt, again. When that piece of peace will stay in my heart? Do you know, the time when they started to sparkling that colorful fireworks while we two just standing side by side and looking for the fireworks, all I just wish to be with someone that I loved, I wish someone can grab my shaking hands, lead me the way to the end. But I still failed to find that person. I wonder when that person will go into my world, my heart? Hopefully next year x'mas I won't be alone anymore~

This song "Life is like a Boat" from Rie fu which can reflect my feeling...

Nobody knows who I really am
I never felt this empty before
And if I ever need someone to come along,
Who's gonna comfort me, and keep me strong?

We are all rowing the boat of fate
The waves keep on coming and we can't escape
But if we ever get lost on our way
The waves would guide you through another day

Far away, I'm breathing, as if I were transparent
It would seem I was in the dark, but I was only blindfolded

I give a prayer as I wait for the new day
Shining vividly up to the edge of that sea

Nobody knows who I really am
Maybe they just don't give a damn
But if I ever need someone to come along
I know you would follow me, and keep me strong

People's hearts change and sneak away from them
The moon in its new cycle leads the boats again

And every time I see your face
The ocean heaves up to my heart
You make me wanna strain at the oars, and soon
I can see the shore

Oh, I can see the shore
When will I see the shore?

I want you to know who I really am
I never thought I'd feel this way towards you
And if you ever need someone to come along,
I will follow you, and keep you strong

And still the journey continues on quiet days as well
The moon in its new cycle shines on the boats again

I give a prayer as I wait for the new day
Shining vividly up to the edge of that sea

And every time I see your face
The ocean heaves up to my heart
You make me wanna strain at the oars, and soon
I can see the shore

We are rowing the boat of fate, but the waves keep attacking us
But isn't that still a wonderful journey? Aren't any of them a wonderful journey?

I still need to face the cruel reality....

Never ends . Never lies

Since I'm back to college, everyday was so damn busy. News suddenly one short bang to my brain, I almost can't take it. But luckily I still survive and typing this facts to let u guys know. LOL~ Sem 3 result will be announce on next Wednesday and Thursday, but I'll be going for holiday after Thursday AM shift, hopefully it won't affect my X'mas mood. Case study hardly to find it as I want it simple but yet interesting for me to learn, but still need to do it. So now already decided the case and going to start work for it! Procedures... Just now saw what's the criteria that must to achieve, I can be said that if she wants us to wear uniform, I'll be one of it.

How wish I still in holiday and being a parasite in my sweet home, hanging around and sing K till midnight.. Life's hard but I still need to go through it!

Just praying and trying for the best!

I'll settle all things before my holiday comes~



P/S: Oh gosh~ 2011 is coming soon and no more "teens" for me anymore.. Also I'm getting fatter! =(
I envy of it~

Mentally lethargy

It's Saturday and I'm sitting in front of my lappie. Later still need go for work and tomorrow will start my night shift already. I don't know how many years I didn't go to shopping and enjoy the feeling of hunting new clothes for myself. Sigh~ Past few weeks was so busy till no time to go out, but luckily I have no feel any desperate of my shopaholic syndrome. LOL~ Need to save money huh. So currently just waiting for one day planning go out and shopping kau kau with Ho Ma~ Hoho~

So after night shift I'll having at least 4 days holiday. Although I'll miss the event CON Night which my college night, but I don't care anymore. I just wanna rest well and stay with family and buddies. Mentally lethargy when I'm staying here. =(

Wish my night shift good luck! =)


P/S: Still waiting....

Hee ~

Going to be a week in the ward. The conclusion is.... busy and tired! Busy of chasing the procedures, even my off day also can't rest properly as they told me that there will be something that I wanted but ended up that thing postponed and I get another procedure. Anyway I'm still the lucky one! Thanks for the God and all the people who give me luck (Ham & J.Shen in FB wishes are really help XD) and strength~ I will continue my effort to reach the peak!

My reward for the helping in healthcare awareness in one of company at Serdang~ XD

Soon there will be December and only I realize that Xmas is coming soon~ Without looking my friends' outing photos with xmas tree I would never know! LOL~ I just hope that I can get my request and back to hometown to enjoy the holiday with family and buddies~ Hmm~ Kinda greedy huh.. But it's really a long time didn't really enjoy with family and especially all my buddies. When I go back always meet up the same people, the others will be not around. Ham told me that he miss me lots and actually I'm so doubt about it, 'cause he's the one who always at home but when ask him come out got lots of excuses. LOL~ But hopefully when Sunday night we can meet up for all staying at AK one! =D


I'm proudly to become a nurse! =)


P/S: I don't need a boy who fulfill my loneliness~ What I need is a real true love~

End and Start All Over Again

Yesterday morning just had my final paper CVS, I thought it can be a big relieve but it's really really wrong. After that we were having a case study briefing which is a individual assignment that we need to complete during our 6 weeks posting, without pass up it u can just forget about of entering Sem 4. I just hope that what I want will get it wonderfully~ Just like what Ms K told us during today morning oral evaluation, "Life's not about waiting for the storm to pass, it's about learning to dance in the rain. ~Vivian Greene" We have learn to cope the situation, not just always escape from it. But I knew I am not always can do what I think of, I still not strong enough to face all the hardness. So I will just take time to conquer all these. Need booster for encouragement!

So tomorrow starting my 6 weeks posting at Orchid. Hopefully everything goes well and no more funny things happen to me anymore. Procedures all come to me and all can sign nicely in my triple 5 and also log book! Can't get my request never mind, as long as can working smoothly at there is more than enough. =)

Within these weeks, there's bunch of things happened around me. First of all, my lil sis attached to another guy. It is really give me a damn big OMG for me because this made me become the only one who is single status in my family. Sigh~ Although all people told me not to be sad about it, but I just feel lonely whenever I need somebody to talk and hug. I can't find a person actually to share that feeling. The special one I still finding for. Don't have any idea when only he will appear on me and give me a big warm hug. Sad~ I will never give up to searching for u, my dear! XD The other thing is I met a guy in game, playing some sort of couple to gain new power due to that attachment. Had a long time didn't see him online, kinda miss him LOL~ But he just 13 and I was like very old for him to be my "bf", although talked not that much but really thanks him to entertain me while I'm bored. Hope can see u online soon~

So wish me luck for the posting time and we shall meet soon, dear friends~


Currently chatting with MK in FB~ Oh gosh, MK!! U made me miss our whole gang friends arr~~ T.T

P/S: You will never understand me..... :(

Holidays . Trip . Home ♥

Back from annual leave. I just left less than 4 days to having my final exam papers for Sem 3. But before talking all those sad stuffs (stupid OSCE which ended 29.10 without be reconciled to get that kind of nor-bad-or-good result), let's just see what I had did for my annual leave....

30.10.10 (Sat)
After 12.30pm class ended, I went for lunch and back to room to start packing for trip to Gopeng & Ipoh. Leave hostel around 4.30pm. Reached KL Sentral around 5pm. We had our dinner at KFC and started our journey on 6pm train. This was my 1st time took train to other states. LOL~ Actually it just same as bus, just it can fetch for so much people to their home. With the noise of the passengers and my lovely mp3, after 2 hours plus, we reached Kampar station. We back to Sxuen's house at Kopisan, Gopeng. It's a lovely small kampung, but I don't understand why there's dozens of Chinese restaurants instead of no mamak stalls. So we had our supper at one of the Chinese restaurants by her family accompany. Nice foods although they took a long time to prepare. Then we back to her home and take our own sweet sleep~

31.10.10 (Sun)
Woke up on 7.30am and we're having Lai Fan and Milo as our 1st breakfast in Perak. Then we went to Ipoh and having some shopping around there and also Ipoh Parade with ZYan. All the clothes were so beautiful and cheap! I did bought some, Hehe~ Evening time we went to temples and prayed. Then back to home again and took dinner with her family at another of the Chinese restaurants. Then went to Kinta City to watch movie Life As We Know It. Damn funny~ Then we had some supper at McD. We did some stupid action at here, but it'll be a nice memories for us. XD

1.11.10(Mon)
We all overslept. So some plans can't make it. We just managed to eat Chicken Floss Noodles with satays and pudding, then went to bus station to take my 2.30pm bus back to my home sweet home. Around 9pm only I reached Melaka. Nice trip~ I would like to have some other trip for the next time! =)

Thanks to all my ji muis =D

2.11.10(Tue) - 7.11.10(Sun)

Most of the time I just stayed at home, played with my little sis and watched drama series and animes. Just had some outing for Wed night having yam cha section with Mian, Xiong and Xian Moi at Uncle John. Sat evening window shopping at DP and night yam cha again at Station 1. Sunday morning having dim sum as breakfast with Mian and Xiong. The others were not in hometown, so we can't meet up. It's sad but I believe we'll meet for the future.

During hometown ♥

So annual leave ended and I shall start my studies for the rest of Sem 3. Good luck!
What a short break I had.... But I know I will enjoy my life peacefully after all these hardships and obstacles. Be positive thinking! =)


P/S: I believe we will meet when the time comes! So just be good with me and stay tuned ♥