当你一层又一层地扒开
我表面上的那个假面
到了最后的那一层
看到
那个赤裸裸的我
是否也会
流下
泪水
我表面上的那个假面
到了最后的那一层
看到
那个赤裸裸的我
是否也会
流下
泪水
~我并不是你想像中的那么勇敢
Tuesday, November 15, 2011
Sunday, November 13, 2011
Last Saturday Night
Yesterday as promised I have to in-charged of AVA in our College Of Nursing Night which held on our college hall.This year my friends as committee decided to do something special than past, so "Magical Night" like Harry Potter scenes decorations did and it's really awesome! Good job for all of them. But actually I'm not enjoyed well during CON Night because too much problems appeared, and I was so fed up of all that. My first and the last time attended this just left me the unhappy memory. So because too busy of all that, I unable to take photo with all my pretty friends. It's unworthy to wear so pretty and grandly. 
After party I followed my friends went for clubbing to get some view of it, yet still can't enjoy so much. Perhaps I just can ignore all these? Sigh~ But still thanks to my ji muis for accompany me to do and support me, it felt more encouragement and thus I have some strength to go on.
My only individual photo on that night ==
Ticket to the train and prize~
So one more to in-charge for my seniors' graduation and one more week for my final exam, yet I still not yet start my revision, also so much things still pending and need to settle! Great! Currently I'm mentally abuse. How wish all these faster settle peacefully.... Pray hard for the best!
11.11.11 -- Nothing special happened on me. Dream too much for that.
P/S: I miss my family and buddies in Melaka!! Hopefully can see you all soon!
Monday, November 7, 2011
Starting my November 2011
It's been a week after the annual leave, time was so packed that can't get rest enough. Everyday I experienced headache and lack of sleep, just because of the practical exam and the dance practice for the CON Night. So I decided not to go home just because of want to get enough sleep, although there's 2 and a half days off before continue our nightmare.
Saturday went to Chow Kit just wanna see how is it the place, as everyone said there's a messy place in KL. But I found it is very interesting place, there's a variety kind of human being over there working and shopping, especially foreign workers. My friend HY bought us to Plaza GM for wholesale market shopping. It's really much cheaper than we usually buy at the normal market. But yet I still control my money, if not I can't live it until next allowance come.
Yesterday went to Sunway for my high heels, but still can't get it after shop for 10 hours. Others can get what they want except me. Sigh~ I'm too fastidious of high heels pattern. So see who wanna borrow their high heels for me, if not I'm gonna wear sport shoes on CON Night. LOL
Today must done all my to-do-lists, if not I'm gonna hit my head on the wall. Happy holiday!
Is it nice my curl hair look?
P/S: Can't I just stop missing you?
Saturday went to Chow Kit just wanna see how is it the place, as everyone said there's a messy place in KL. But I found it is very interesting place, there's a variety kind of human being over there working and shopping, especially foreign workers. My friend HY bought us to Plaza GM for wholesale market shopping. It's really much cheaper than we usually buy at the normal market. But yet I still control my money, if not I can't live it until next allowance come.
Yesterday went to Sunway for my high heels, but still can't get it after shop for 10 hours. Others can get what they want except me. Sigh~ I'm too fastidious of high heels pattern. So see who wanna borrow their high heels for me, if not I'm gonna wear sport shoes on CON Night. LOL
Today must done all my to-do-lists, if not I'm gonna hit my head on the wall. Happy holiday!
Is it nice my curl hair look?P/S: Can't I just stop missing you?
Monday, October 31, 2011
Last Holiday in This Year
My annual leave passed very fast because didn't did much activities on that week. Every night I had the same routine that is stay at home with family and went out yam cha with the same people but different places. It's nice to chit chat each other, it just made me to forget the bad things happened in my life. All my 38 crazy friends finally did what we planned for almost a year, that is eat buffet together! Although we just went to eat Chinese restaurant and some of them were not with us, but our big boss JT wanted us to wear formal attire to go, so much comments that he did until I just can laugh non-stop. Haha~ After dinner we went to Overtime which just grandly opened in Melaka, so there's so much fun we did over there. I love the environment and definitely will go there again!
Dinner time!
Crazy Halloween and Xian's birthday celebration!
Sunday before back to hostel, met up a long-time-no-see old pals which already 8 years. Time flies and we already grown up become a 20 years old adult, compared of what we used to be in school, there's a big differences. We went for a movie 'In Time' and had lunch together. Although there's a change within him, but yet still some characteristics shown that he's is the one I knew. Haha~ Glad to meet back and hope we can see again soon!
Happy holiday ended and it's time to concentrate in studies! Much more challenges will coming out and wish that I can handle it well! Gambateh!
P/S: Maybe destiny has it all planned, we are just too busy living in the past to notice the bigger picture. =)
Dinner time!
Crazy Halloween and Xian's birthday celebration!Sunday before back to hostel, met up a long-time-no-see old pals which already 8 years. Time flies and we already grown up become a 20 years old adult, compared of what we used to be in school, there's a big differences. We went for a movie 'In Time' and had lunch together. Although there's a change within him, but yet still some characteristics shown that he's is the one I knew. Haha~ Glad to meet back and hope we can see again soon!
Happy holiday ended and it's time to concentrate in studies! Much more challenges will coming out and wish that I can handle it well! Gambateh!
P/S: Maybe destiny has it all planned, we are just too busy living in the past to notice the bigger picture. =)
Saturday, October 22, 2011
Lighters
I'm at home now, starting to enjoy my last annual leave for this year. Past few days just had my test 2, I think I'm done it quite well, just because of all subjects are objective questions has been tested. So even I don't know how to do, just simply squeeze my brain and find the best answer from it. LOL~ This is my positive thinking! =D But of course, they had bring some bad news for us, that is our OSCE had been bring forward to 10 Nov from 18 Nov. OMG!! I actually haven't start practicing yet, left 2 weeks including my annual leave for us to make it perfectly score! There are two primary choices in life: to accept conditions as they exist, or accept the responsibility for changing them. There's no way to complaint it anymore, just pray hard that I manage to overcome it!
I already decided to not thinking of college stuff for this holiday, because after that there's a stressful days for us to face it. So no point to worry when the things still not in its way. Hopefully I'm getting all the better for a holiday. Enjoy myself! Finger crossed~
P/S: Need to get a new pair of slippers because of the stupid rain! Isssyyhh~
I already decided to not thinking of college stuff for this holiday, because after that there's a stressful days for us to face it. So no point to worry when the things still not in its way. Hopefully I'm getting all the better for a holiday. Enjoy myself! Finger crossed~
P/S: Need to get a new pair of slippers because of the stupid rain! Isssyyhh~
Saturday, October 15, 2011
Memories Forever
Last Friday, went back to home as just wanna release stress before the block is on again. So after dinner with family, as usual hanging out with my buddies at Amigo just the sake of guy's hunger, then headed to Klebang Seafarer and watched darkness sea, then only went to have some beer at Sunset Bistro. Reached home around 1.30am as having some headache due to alcohol, quickly brush teeth and lying to bed get my sleep. Around 2.30am, my little sister wake me up, but I refused, suddenly my mom talk very loud and said, "You want to see your grandpa or not? Doctor asked us to go and see him now!" I was stunt and awake fully after digest my mom's sentence, "WHAT???" This is my answer.
So quickly change my clothes and all of us rushed to the GH, it took some time because my dad took the wrong way to enter the hospital. When we reached the ward, my grandpa just passed away. Then there's the sad story started. All my relatives trying their best to rush back hometown and settle the funeral. Sorrow, sadness and stress happened to all of us.
I knew one day it would be like this, but never thought that the day come so fast. Death, I saw so many during my practical in hospital. But happened on my relative, this was the first time. Actually the feeling so complicated, I can't describe it. I think so much and deeply, wonder why death must happen to all creatures in this world. But there's no answer for that. Or actually I already know that answer, just deny it.
Anyway, life must go on. It is here in my heart and mind and memories forever -- Dedicated to my beloved grandpa. ♥
So quickly change my clothes and all of us rushed to the GH, it took some time because my dad took the wrong way to enter the hospital. When we reached the ward, my grandpa just passed away. Then there's the sad story started. All my relatives trying their best to rush back hometown and settle the funeral. Sorrow, sadness and stress happened to all of us.
I knew one day it would be like this, but never thought that the day come so fast. Death, I saw so many during my practical in hospital. But happened on my relative, this was the first time. Actually the feeling so complicated, I can't describe it. I think so much and deeply, wonder why death must happen to all creatures in this world. But there's no answer for that. Or actually I already know that answer, just deny it.
Anyway, life must go on. It is here in my heart and mind and memories forever -- Dedicated to my beloved grandpa. ♥
It takes time to recover.
Tuesday, October 4, 2011
Lucky 787
Lately was so busy due to last week posting at psychiatric ward, and many journals need to be done. So everyday I rush and rush but till now still got some haven't done yet, when only I can finish it all?? Sigh~~
So recently what did I had, actually the routine almost the same but still something special to go on. Hehe~
Firstly, I successfully done my 3rd time night shift, although every night were so damn busy till we all having "food on run", not much time to eat supper, and slept so long hours still can't recover back the tiredness, even after my night off still the same. Of course, I did feel sad about that, 'cause there's no one really can accept the death in a very short period, although is stranger. May you rest in peace.
I really enjoy well during my night off. Had a great moment with my family, ate my mom's homecook, and sleep at my own lovely bed. Met Xiong and Xian too, but I miss the rest of them also. Watched The Smurfs, a great movie and really laugh out loud in the threater, also Nasi Lemak 2.0, a truly Malaysia film. Holiday is short, but I appreciate the time be with them. =)
Second, I went to IJN event on 25 Sept Sunday early morning, had a mile walk around Taman Tasik Titiwangsa, and surprisingly I won a consolation prize from lucky draw no. '787' -- 2 persons buffet high tea voucher at Berjaya Times Square KL. Teehee~~ So happy about that I didn't miss it! Because when I just went out from the toilet and I heard my lucky draw number from the stage, I quickly ran to the stage there and trying to reconfirm, but I saw a lady went up and took her prize and thus I thought my prize gone as I took too long time to reach there, but luckily my sixth sense told me not to give up, and I went to the stage and reconfirm with the emcee. Haha~ So now just awaiting my sister back from her Taiwan trip and date her to there!
Third, had my first time ever experience in psychiatric posting at HKL. Get many brand new experiences from there as we usually won't contact with this type of patients in our hospital. Saw some extraordinary scenes and really made us in a big shock and laugh too. Life is cruel to make them become like that. So that's why many people said reality orientation is much important for all of us, we must be able to manage our stress and not to get ourselves in bad mood too long period. Every cloud has a silver lining~ But yet I still hate the rushing journal part and not to forget the mumbling part, and of course the hot weather too! XD
So because of all these stress, after the case study presentation, we went to eat Chilis as to distress for a short while. We kept on refill the chips for 2 times and scary part is to refill the variety of fruit juices for 5 times. LOL~ After 2 hours and finally fulfill our stomach and happiness too! Heehee~
This week will be the last week of posting for Semester 5 1st half, and here we go to the 2nd half, which will be much more busy than previous as we will having exam, OSCE and many events to participate. My sleeping time will be reducing and tiredness will continuously top up. Going to collapse soon if not to take a break!
Looking forward to go back home on Friday! Because I already missing you all too much! ^^
P/S: I still wander around, and finding all the possibilities to make myself believe in that.
So recently what did I had, actually the routine almost the same but still something special to go on. Hehe~
Firstly, I successfully done my 3rd time night shift, although every night were so damn busy till we all having "food on run", not much time to eat supper, and slept so long hours still can't recover back the tiredness, even after my night off still the same. Of course, I did feel sad about that, 'cause there's no one really can accept the death in a very short period, although is stranger. May you rest in peace.
I really enjoy well during my night off. Had a great moment with my family, ate my mom's homecook, and sleep at my own lovely bed. Met Xiong and Xian too, but I miss the rest of them also. Watched The Smurfs, a great movie and really laugh out loud in the threater, also Nasi Lemak 2.0, a truly Malaysia film. Holiday is short, but I appreciate the time be with them. =)
Second, I went to IJN event on 25 Sept Sunday early morning, had a mile walk around Taman Tasik Titiwangsa, and surprisingly I won a consolation prize from lucky draw no. '787' -- 2 persons buffet high tea voucher at Berjaya Times Square KL. Teehee~~ So happy about that I didn't miss it! Because when I just went out from the toilet and I heard my lucky draw number from the stage, I quickly ran to the stage there and trying to reconfirm, but I saw a lady went up and took her prize and thus I thought my prize gone as I took too long time to reach there, but luckily my sixth sense told me not to give up, and I went to the stage and reconfirm with the emcee. Haha~ So now just awaiting my sister back from her Taiwan trip and date her to there!
Third, had my first time ever experience in psychiatric posting at HKL. Get many brand new experiences from there as we usually won't contact with this type of patients in our hospital. Saw some extraordinary scenes and really made us in a big shock and laugh too. Life is cruel to make them become like that. So that's why many people said reality orientation is much important for all of us, we must be able to manage our stress and not to get ourselves in bad mood too long period. Every cloud has a silver lining~ But yet I still hate the rushing journal part and not to forget the mumbling part, and of course the hot weather too! XD
So because of all these stress, after the case study presentation, we went to eat Chilis as to distress for a short while. We kept on refill the chips for 2 times and scary part is to refill the variety of fruit juices for 5 times. LOL~ After 2 hours and finally fulfill our stomach and happiness too! Heehee~
This week will be the last week of posting for Semester 5 1st half, and here we go to the 2nd half, which will be much more busy than previous as we will having exam, OSCE and many events to participate. My sleeping time will be reducing and tiredness will continuously top up. Going to collapse soon if not to take a break!
Looking forward to go back home on Friday! Because I already missing you all too much! ^^
P/S: I still wander around, and finding all the possibilities to make myself believe in that.
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