Learning Process Will Never Ends

Today morning had my running assessment with Ms S for this semester requirement. It's very nervous to having this kind of exam, especially for interviewing the patient with someone that observing you. Besides that we are required to do a procedure with supervision too. So she had chosen the dressing procedure for me in other ward due to my ward don't have that procedure.

I waiting for her and settle all the case study from 8am till 10am. All of sudden that green shirt women searching for me and bring me to prepare for the dressing equipment. When all done, she came and we start to do procedure 1st. Overall is good and she said that I can managed to maintain the aseptic technique which is the most important thing. I was happy about that. Then straight away we went to my interview patient room and start the interview. Unfortunately my interview was bad because I have no confident to ask questions. Luckily my patient and Ms S helps me alots from collecting the data, so I still can write all those data.

There's an encouragement from my patient. He told me that to be confident of what I doing right now. Aim a target and do everything that you think you can achieve it. I should do it better, I know I can. "Just do it!"

There's still a long way to achieve my achievement....

Specially thanks to my friendly and helpful guys =)

This Is My Story~

Check this out! You sure will like it very much! Hee~
www.this-is-my-story.com/v/HRF9VYGN7W08

Be myself =)

Don't know why recently I was so damn emo. I think you'll know what's the reason. So being like a zombie but there's nothing against plants nor do I crave for the brains. Till yesterday I can't tahan anymore when I saw the facebook picture, it's made me feel like so lonely. Post a sentence to facebook, there's some people like my status. Is it a proud thing? Then my BBF, Mian asked me what happened and we were talked to phone for 3 hours. It's been a long time both of us didn't talk for so long. I'm happy for that, really. =)

Then today was my last day posting at CSSD. So went there and there's nothing to do, because no case in OT. CN chit-chatted with four of us about 2 hours. It's fun to talk with her, because we know what have need to be go through to be in this career. Then I and SM continued chit-chatted for the whole shift. Really thanks to her, it works. I feel happy, not lonely anymore. I believe I had gain the energy to fulfill my days. No doubt anymore.

There's impossible to let everyone in this world to love us, we can't fulfill their expectation. Why we must let everyone happy where we feel unhappy at all? I have my own point to care myself and others, so no one can change me anymore! I am what I am!!

I'll be happy and appreciate of what I have now and in future! XOXO


P/S: This is my special gift when posting at CSSD~ Thanks 135°C autoclave~ T.T

Can't Fight This Feeling Anymore

Last Friday after work, went back home alone. The new bus terminal is so far away from my place. Took my long long time to reach there, somemore I need to show H.Ling the way to go there, so it's a must to take LRT and not taxi. Luckily she knew how to go back college by her ownself. =P

It's nice to back home after tired from work. Although it's 135km from KL, far huh? After my dad picked me up at bus central, mom at working place and my sis at tuition central, we da bao the dinner because we need to wait for my sis's netbook which coming from KL. After a long long waiting, my sis finally get her HP netbook. She no need to fight with my dad about the pc anymore. LOL~

Second day morning wake up by my mom, she said wanna bring me go to seek doctor about my stupid callus on my right foot. So went to the nearest clinic, the doctor said want to refer me to orthopedic surgeon and will undergo a surgery on it. I was like "Yea, I knew it! What to do for it unless surgery?". Hopefully by my annual leave on June, I manage to make it! It's really painful when I'm standing, walking or even sitting whenever I put pressure on the stupid callus. Faster faster remove it!!

Saturday night as usual went out yam cha with Xian, Meh and Xiong at Old Taste. Had a nice talk with them. We always concern of our future what will we be and is it the right choice that we do. Who knows? I remembered what Meh told me, "Don't get yourself involve in love now! You'll get suffer of it. It's more than that when you and him be together." I know, that's why I still single now. But I still can't get myself out of that loneliness feeling. There's an acid in my heart, so uncomfortable.

Sigh~ I don't know what I suppose to do now instead of just waiting for the tiny chance.... Be optimistic, Rachel! There's still lots of assignments that waiting for me... =[


P/S: I'll go through all these by my ownself! Don't overthinking!

Baby baby~

Finished my 1 week posting at Nursery ward. What I gained in this experience is baby are so cute, straight-forward human, they will cry whenever they feel cold, hungry, uncomfortable and want pampered by the others. Baby also brings happiness to their family, I saw all the family members were so happy when they see the baby. It's an awesome feeling to see the whole family smile widely around the baby. XD

I had my opportunity to feed the baby, change diapers and also bath them whenever is daily bath or the 1st newborn bath. All these are the requirements for the clinical experiences. Haha~ I really have no idea how to handle them not to cry anymore, even more had a cute baby vomited on my uniform, so it's not a good pathway for my future undertaking. I love babies! But surely not for my career. LOL~

Start from today, I'm going to labour ward to assist what need to do during labour time. Witness a case is one of the requirement in this clinical experience. Hopefully I can make it as the opportunity is not always will be there. Pray hard to God! =)

Say bye bye to babies and here am I, the courageous and great mummies!!


P/S: Will that dream be comes true? I'll awaiting for it...

If...

It would be nice that I'm a billionaire...
It would be better if I'm a superman...
It would be great that if I can have a long holiday...
It would be the best if I can get what I wish for....

All I wish for will never be true... Really?

How am I suppose to continue my life without any hesitate or doubt anything like past?

I can't find back that feeling anymore....

What a pitiful thought I had it right now.... Big sigh... =(


P/S: Please let me go through all these.... I need courage and somebody to love and care me~

When February goes...

Last Friday accidentally get my PH which was the last year 31.12 (a sudden PH for celebrating our country won football champion), almost burnt but luckily sister allowed me to get it. So happily went back home in the morning and had a nice lunch with my dad at outside, then continue to watch my One Piece until I fall asleep, too tired and felt uncomfortable. Just stay at home for the whole day for resting. Don't know why I don't have mood to ask for hanging out with my buddies. Hormone imbalance I think.

Saturday morning went to Chan Optometrist -- my eyes specialist shop for my new specs with my mom. It's great when the optometrist told me that my power still maintain the same for 2 years plus, that means it become stable for my current age. Good sign for me since I don't want to make it worse anymore. Need to continue take care of my beautiful eyes, I still need you till the day I die. LOL~ After 2 years plus, finally I manage to get my new specs with more professional look. But due to lack of stock for lens, so I still waiting it to be send to my hostel. Thanks mom for sponsor me the specs!

Then noon time after lunch at home, went out with Mun for a window shopping. This was such a long long time ago that both of us shopping together. Talked about the past and present, she have a good life with her loved one, quite envy of it. We had our crepe cakes for high tea, it's delicious! Made my stomach had not enough space for my dinner, waste food and sorry about it. After dinner with dad and sis, back home and waiting for my yam-cha time with Xian Moi. Talked lots since just two of us only available on that night. It relieved some of my feeling, really thanks to her =)

Good luck to two of us =)

Sunday just stay at home for stick more time at there, 'cause I think I have no chance to go back again till on-block time, busy of all posting thingy. I dislike also not use, life still need to move on.

So currently I'm in nursery posting. It's nice to be with babies without cries! LOL~ I just pray to get what I need to achieve for this posting. Moody when think all those, but I can't get ruin of it without settle it nicely. So gambateh for all those!

I'm in love with BigBang again ♥