没有如果

当事实都无法改变时，我也只能坦然接受。。。

你问我会后悔吗？

此刻的我，迟疑。。。





人生，

没有如果这回事。

Starts My Last Year!

So this month -- July, which starts our Semester 5, really made us crazy and mad. Too much things need to be done in a short period and everyone expected us as Year 3 students -- "you should know what to do and what not to do!" Oh God~ I'm going to vomit out all my undigested food and blood, but yet I still to swallow it back to my stomach and continue to work on that. The timetable so packed without any SDL, even SDL time also got extra lectures on, sometimes we had extra doctors' lectures too, but I love their lectures. XD

Just within 3 weeks my file already fulled with notes =="

This time we will going to some special associations which covered our syllabus such as MAB, NASSAM, TONEH, and of course psychiatry posting too! I'm very looking forward for all these! Because with all these, I can learn more experiences by my naked eyes and hands, not only just learn from notes, books and lecturers.

So my Semester 5 schedule as below:
3 July - 20 August : 1st half on block
21 August - 8 October : 1st half posting
9 October - 26 November :2nd half on block (between this having 1 annual leave =D)
27 November - 7 January 2012 : 2nd half posting and going to start my last semester!

Time is precious and I have to grab it well! If not I'll going to regret it! So be positive =)


P/S: I know myself well, so just let it be~

A Little Bit of Time

Yesterday back to my sweet home, just to let me relax and lying on my own bed, of course to see my parents and little sister too. Ate da bao dinner food as my mom worked. Night time went for yam cha with Xian and Xiong at Restism, there's so much topics we can talked about. LOL~ Sunday chit-chatted with my mom, then noon time went out with my sister for some shopping at JJ. Then rest for a while and traveled back to hostel. Time is short but still it is worth to be in home. Thanks to my buddies and especially my mom who help me to buy and sell the coupons! At least I have not that much burden on that case. =)

So continue my classes and must start to revise the lessons, it's going to be exam week after 3 weeks! There's no more time to let me relax too much! Hopefully next Monday we'll having that public holiday. Hehe~

I want this happiness to be with me all the time! And I miss you so much~


P/S: Too much ideas in my mind, but I can't speak out! =X

Celebrate. Remember. Fight Back!

Last Saturday went to Relay For Life 2011 which held at Stadium UKM Bangi. This year lots of my friends participated too! So had lots of fun with them, especially the midnight time we played about "true or dare". Really impress all of them! As usual we walked on the track and joined their activities such as luminaria ceremony, dance, exercise and so on. Although it's really tiring, but we really enjoyed well! Hopefully next year can join again~ =)

On the spot!

My designed luminaria~

Ji muis~

Sunday morning sky so beautiful~

Group photo!

What's going on?

Recently really extremely busy... Until I have no time to update my bloggie. There were so much words that I wanna share it out. But for the past three weeks after my annual leave, my sleeping hours also decreasing because need to settle my things well first. Tiring -- this is what I can said.

So after my annual leave, back to this college, continue my class rep thingy till July, participate in sports day activities -- treasure hunt and practicing cheerleading for nights and nights. It's really made me extremely exhausted, luckily the result was really made me felt what we did is worth -- Winner of treasure hunt and cheerleading competition, also champion of sports day 2011 too! Last year participated and we can win it, really happy about that! Great job G69!

Also started my Semester 5 last Monday, had my pre-test and luckily I passed! Then continuously having lectures non-stop, the subjects really killing me. All were so important, I think my neuron cells can actively function well for my studies. Hopefully won't get any neurological or psychological problem after study so much! The tutors really push us very much since the semester haven't start yet. Sometimes I really felt why so difficult to make us suffer instead of just let us to enjoy our last year? It's impossible for this place, I'm sure for that.

So later I'll having club meeting with my boss, rushing for my journal for the sake to get cross in log book, so that I can wear mufti during lectures; Saturday will going for Relay For Life 2011 campaign with bunch of friends till Sunday go back to hostel, another meeting for following event in the end of July; start from Monday need to stay till 6pm for doctor's lectures. Somemore I need to sell coupons for this place building fund, all my beloved buddies please help me!! =[

Hectic life will never ends.... ==


P/S: I just miss my family and besties so much!!
God please save me!!

Holiday in June

So my annual leave really awesome because almost everyday I hanging out with besties and family in my beloved hometown. Never wasted the time over there! Haha~ And luckily my besties also willing to crazy with me, that's made the joyful holiday in this wonderful June.

19/6 (Sat)
Reached home and ate my dinner with family as usual. Then went to Movida as promised with Mun, Xian and MK. It's fun when get high with besties. We should ask more people to come next time! After finish and my stomach also calling me go for supper in McD, then the fun night ended. I didn't get drunk this time~ Hohoho~

20/6 (Sun)
Night time went for yam cha with bunch of besties at Restism. It's a new place and all the shop is fulled with all the white curtains and white sofa, white tables. Beverages and snacks cheap yet big size too! So we chit-chatted since long time didn't meet up together, and planning what to do for that week~ Nice gathering anyway!

21/6 (Mon)
Morning time, "Slippers gang" went for dim sum breakfast as promised with Mian for a long time! Xian and MK also followed as MK's going back to KL for his studies. Dim sum very delicious because it was paid by MK. Haha~ Then went to visit Negi's new shop as all of us never go before also, tried his soya bean and cakes. Yummy yummy~ My stomach very full and bloated till cannot move anymore. Then MK seems like don't want go back and really not satisfied of 3 of us since Tuesday night we'll going for sing K without his presence, so to fulfill his wishes we went for sing K at Dreambox for 3 hours. Then sent him to bus station and said goodbye to him.
Then night time I and Mian went yam cha with RT -- who came back from Canada for her summer break. It's been a long time didn't meet her, so we chit-chatted for the whole night. What I can said is the feeling is still the same like when we're still in secondary school, that incredible feeling is unexplainable. Wish you all the best in your life, and hopefully before you graduate I can go to Canada and visit you, RT! =)

22/6 (Tue)
Singing K in the night was awesome! But if you didn't developed into MC and sinusitis. Too bad I had both on that night, so can't sing so well. Let the chance to Mian and Xian for their concert! I swear I'll go and sing again when I'm in the good condition!

23/6 (Wed)
Hot spring at Gadek with Mian, Xian, JT, Negi and Xiong which we discussed on Sunday night. The water was really hot and I just managed to sunk my legs into hot water only. Unlike JT and Negi can happily play with water like swimming in the pool. As you know, when you go out with JT and Negi in this kind of water place, you'll definitely go back like drowned rat. After that we went for mamak stall supper which had a long time didn't go to mamak stall, as we always yam cha at cafe. LOL! And very surprisingly JT treated us that meal, I think just because he too anxious about his operation and caused his brain neuron got some problem. Haha~

24/6 (Thu)
Doing nothing in home. Kept on FB-ing and watch drama. Thought Ham will called us for hang out, but ended up don't know where is he, so the day just passed. Ham's going to get it!! We swear for that! ==

25/6 (Fri)
After JT's operation done, I and Xiong went to hospital and visited him. It just a very minor operation, but he seems like very "enjoy" the process. Except the part that he complaint of severe pain on his finger and asked for pain killer, waited for so long and when the nurse came, only he realize that it was an IM injection on his buttock. LOL~ Pretty enjoy to visit people in the hospital, just because I'm a nurse? Haha~ Evil smile ^^

26/6 (Sat)
Night time went for Xiong's birthday celebration with Mian, Xian and JT. Korean food is delicious but it's too spicy for me, I still enjoy well after at all. Then we went to Jonker Street as JT need to buy something for his god brother, I also able to buy some non-alcohol cocktails for my friends. After pass the thing to JT's friend, we proceed to Wings Cafe for our yam cha section. The singers sang well on that night, we really enjoyed it! But when the mind crossed over, I was very moody since need to go back to continue my studies.

27/6 (Sun)
Rest well in my sweet home and back to PJ in the evening bus. Gotta work out many things!

So this is the end of story, Hope I can enjoy once again with all these! But have to wait till October~ ><

There is No Place Like Home

Currently I'm in holiday, staying in my sweet home and hanging out with family and friends everyday. The details will be post after I finish my holiday, because I need to express my super-emo feeling right now!

Actually since I was back to home, everyday my mood was nice and happy, easily to laugh out loud when my besties talked something funny or nonsense. Till just now after we're planning to have our supper after the hot spring, I checked my phone and saw there's somebody from my college who called me up. So I just replied the call, and I was regret to make that decision to call back. Every single negative things back into my mind, I started to get frustrated and annoying to know what actually happened in my college now. Sigh~ I know I can't escape from that, after 3 more days I still need to go back that hell place and face all the bullshit things. While watching all my besties was chit-chatting and laughed in the mamak stall, especially when I saw JT's smiled at me, suddenly I realize I really miss them damn much. Why can't I find back the same laughter in my college? I didn't forget that feeling, just I can't feel the same feeling over there. It's weird. And I'm really sad actually.

I don't really wanna go back that place anymore, even though just left 1 year and I'm going to graduated. It's suffering, and I'm still need to struggling in that place. Painful, sorrow, tears, stressful -- I wanna it to get rid from my life. But I know, it can't get away from me anymore.

There's an empty space in my deep heart. How to fulfill back that passion again?

I have no idea.....