Currently I'm in holiday, staying in my sweet home and hanging out with family and friends everyday. The details will be post after I finish my holiday, because I need to express my super-emo feeling right now!
Actually since I was back to home, everyday my mood was nice and happy, easily to laugh out loud when my besties talked something funny or nonsense. Till just now after we're planning to have our supper after the hot spring, I checked my phone and saw there's somebody from my college who called me up. So I just replied the call, and I was regret to make that decision to call back. Every single negative things back into my mind, I started to get frustrated and annoying to know what actually happened in my college now. Sigh~ I know I can't escape from that, after 3 more days I still need to go back that hell place and face all the bullshit things. While watching all my besties was chit-chatting and laughed in the mamak stall, especially when I saw JT's smiled at me, suddenly I realize I really miss them damn much. Why can't I find back the same laughter in my college? I didn't forget that feeling, just I can't feel the same feeling over there. It's weird. And I'm really sad actually.
I don't really wanna go back that place anymore, even though just left 1 year and I'm going to graduated. It's suffering, and I'm still need to struggling in that place. Painful, sorrow, tears, stressful -- I wanna it to get rid from my life. But I know, it can't get away from me anymore.
There's an empty space in my deep heart. How to fulfill back that passion again?
I have no idea.....
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