Missing

All of sudden, I miss those past. We used to play, joke and have fun together. Although now also we did the same things, but why I feel the feeling is not same as before? Is it because we grown up more, our prospective changed too, and it made our laugh not same anymore?

Actually, all I want is just a simple happy life. Why does it so difficult to make it? When I thought I'm in happiness, there will sure having something come and trouble me. When I thought this is all I wanted, there will be something to change my mind and made me cry. Why You want to make life so difficult? I don't understand.

I'm in doubt....

Being growing up is so helpless.... :(

Strong World

Haha~ Finally change the new look for my bloggie. It's a blue sky theme which having a love hanging on the sky, meaning that we must love everyday no matter what happened~ I know it's hard to accept by just saying or acting, but life always having obstacles which we need to go through it. Like what this quotation says that, "It’s not what happens to you, but how you react to it that matters. -- Epictetus" We need to learn from the incidents and try to react it. In this cruel world, we must be strong, to against all the bad.

This posting period, I have to be strong and cheeky to get the achievement. Of course without luck, I can't make it so far. So... PRAY HARD to God~ Please, I really need the luck! =)


This road, will never be easy....

It's 20!

Sorry for the late post because after that I was having my exam which used most of my time to study. So... Here's the details about my b'day celebration for my 20th years in this world!

12.2.11 (Sat)
Back to Melaka as we had already promise to sing K on the night. I knew there'll be a celebration for me, but out of my expectation it's about 11 people that gave me so many surprise especially all the presents and mango cake made by Xian's sister. Haha~ I was so glad to have such fun with all of you, except the part that you all trying to make out for him, but he doesn't have that initiative to do it, furthermore I had make my mind clear about that, so it's wasting time and effort to do so. But anyway, thanks for the celebration! Don't worry about it, I really enjoyed it so much and so well! 5 hours singing and yam cha afterward was so satisfactory. A big love to all of you~ (Weird part is I missed the most important 4 for the celebration, but maybe there's nothing to be feel worse about that....=( )

13.2.11 (Sun)
After reached hostel and enjoyed my dinner, there's a sudden attack from ji muis. A big chocolate indulge and a fake roses bouquet -- aww I just love to get a nice flower from someone, especially from handsome. But it's just from pretties, never mind then. Shared all the cakes out and took photos with them. Thanks to all my ji muis!

14.2.11 (Mon)
Main day -- actually I just get lots of attention from classmates and sang a b'day songs for me. Yea, I know I'm getting older. >< Received some presents and cake too! And I get my cosmetic bag from the talk because I'm the b'day girl. Haha~ It's happy to receive presents! Night time went to Ikano for window shopping, I just don't wanna be in hostel during my big day, especially when I'm not in my home.

Thanks to all of u !

So... There's no more "teens" in my life anymore, no handsome date with me during Valentine's and b'day. Just lots of friendship love and family love for this year~ Still not yet to buy a present for myself due to lack of some cash to get my target. I believe sooner I shall get it! Haha~ Hopefully next year I can having someone special to be with me on this big day! Pray hard! =D

I'll always appreciate of what my mom and dad did for me and my sisters forever and ever ❤

Innocent: Right or Wrong?

Talked with friend about one thing that a person did for me, but I didn't tried to do something for her about that. So been commented by her and said, "You should give her something as she helped you before, if not you'll always owe her a thank-you gift." I never thought that situation, from her words, I felt guilty about what I had did for the past.

But... What's the problem to be an innocent person? Can't we just say thank you after someone did help you? Is it compulsory to give something to that person so that it'll looks like a formal appreciation? I really appreciated of what anyone did for me, no matter that is good or bad. It made me to become better person. Can't I just appreciate it in my deep heart?

I had been so emo afterward. Although my friend apologized of what she said after she saw my tears dropped down, but I just cannot accept the fact. I cannot accept the apology.


I feel I'm the stupidest in this world ;(

兔gether We Celebrate CNY 2011

Haha~ Back from CNY leave and today is already the 3rd day of schooling, my CNY mood is turn off as exam is coming soon, some more just now had my resit pre-test (just because of 1 question! arggh~), thinking that this time sure can pass! IT IS A MUST!! If not I'm gonna mad and take out 20 bucks because of that. Pray hard!

So let's talk about this annual leave! Finally I get to attend my primary school gathering as every time they made I always at KL. Met back old friends was wonderful! Talked about the past which happened during Standard 5 and 6, singing in KTV and took photos with each of them. Although just about 11 of us attended out of 49 classmates, but it was a really awesome gathering we had. Good luck to all of us! =)

Then I rest at home for 3 days, no outing with friends, just One Piece animation and family with me! LOL~ Actually I'm just lack of motivation to ask friends to go out as scared they all reject my invitation. How stupid am I, right? But never mind then, I still enjoyed staying at home without doing anything. Because I knew that after that it sure will be very busy for my days. Hehe~ So I just helping mom what she want me to do, talking rubbish with my little sister and drive here and there for some purpose.

2 Feb was CNY eve, as usual we need to go to grandpa's house for cleaning and reunion lunch. This time quite different as my grandpa just back from hospital, so I observed my grandpa quite often, see how's his condition. Conclusion-- he's not as good as last time, seems like abit confused and bad tempered. I don't know what to do that can help him, although I'm a student nurse. Sigh~ But I tried my best to comfort him, hope he can be better than now. At night, all of sudden Xiong called me and asked whether want go to play basketball now. So I just followed and watching them playing, also talking our plan during CNY. Lastly, I managed to play Kongming Lantern/ Sky Lantern which bought by JT. It was the 1st time I play it, so very gan jiong to put it into the sky. Although it's so windy and almost burn the roof of the toilet house, some more I forgot to make a wish. What a big sweat on my head! But still it was fun and special experience with them on CNY eve to the 1st day of CNY! Hee~

Yummy lunch!

1st day of CNY, visiting my grandpa's house and receiving some angpau from relatives. Then playing games with cousins, laughed gao gao because of some stupid punishments! At night just stay at home watching "Mei Ren Bang". Nice movie from Malaysia! Actually not much thing to do much during 1st day, my real day starts afterward. LOL

2nd day, went to mother side relative's house and enjoyed lunch. Then back to grandpa's house till evening, back to home and preparing for BBQ! Met back all buddies and talking nonsense made my laughter more and more! BBQ damn delicious but it causing my throat inflamed also. We also gambled on the round table. Won 16 bucks from them, yeah! It's been a while I didn't win the money in the gamble, maybe because of S.Feng God of Prosperity sat beside me. LOL~ Meh bought a cake for celebrating Fern's belated birthday, but the quality of the cake really bad, doesn't look like from SR.

3rd day is the big day for our gang, we went to each house one by one from morning till night. This year we went to Mian, S.Feng, Xian, MK, Ham, Negi, Nyamuk, JT, S.Yin and J.Shen's house. Almost all the house they were gamble and gamble especially for King and Queen Gamble -- MK, S.Feng and Xian. Won and lose lots. Haha~ I always disturbed our "ffk" king-- Ham, it's nice to disturb him as I had a long time didn't do so! LOL~ Night time we went for dinner and fun fair. Managed to win some bears from there, although I don't like it so much. I almost flied up when playing the bam bam car. What a shock man! But then, it was a wonderful moment to be with all buddies, especially after a long time didn't meet up!

4th day, also the last day to be in home. I just spent my last moment with family. Had our reunion lunch since my sister can't make it during the eve. Then served relatives when they did sudden attack to visit my house. LOL. Then packed and back here, start all over again.

Time is short especially when the happy moment, but I really appreciated every moment that we spent with. Hope all of us stay pretty, handsome, healthy and happy! Love ya♥


P/S: Can't wait for singing K! Hehe~

Stupor!!

The longer I living in this place, I feel more disgusting about all those human "kindly heart" attitudes. Are they having their own brain to think or say the better words? Please put down your ego la. You think who are you in this earth?? For me, you may be my sweetest honey, or the bullshitter ever in my life!!

Why should I always kindly wasting my precious time to comfort you or being a counselor whenever you are angry of something that stupid small matters?? Why should I always protect you from others while you are the one who does not know anything yet still shooting me of what am I trying to achieve?? Please don't put your perception into my situation, you have nothing can trying to criticize my action and thought! You don't even know me well also!!


I HAD ENOUGH OF THAT!!!

I Don't Wanna Miss a Thing..

Last last Saturday, went out with my 2 boyfriends whom came to KL for their new HTC phone. So I'm just be a tour guide to bring them go whenever they wanna go. We went to the whole shopping centres around Bukit Bintang just to buy phone accessories and Nike shoes. Haha~ Never felt so tired before in my shopping time, maybe this time is not because of I want to buy things, so I will felt my legs is not longer mine anymore. LOL~ But I'm still enjoyed to be with them since we had a long time didn't go shopping together, every time we met just for tea and chit chatting.

Sunday after woke up, doing the things that I unusual to do since there's no electricity in hostel. Read comic and play pokers with friends, a new experiences in my hostel life. Haha~ I even make up myself without any electricity, then I went for my hospital dinner in Subang. It's a nice night because we won a hamper and I managed to wear my high heels without falling down. LOL~

After that, I started to feel so sick especially from Tuesday till Thursday. High fever 39 degree celcius with chills and excessive flu made me worst. Seek for doctor due to so many of my group girls get Inf A positive, luckily mine case is different. Yet it still costly and I get my MC on Wednesday. Then another lucky thing happened on me, I get my sudden 3 days holiday to get myself well in my home. The first two days was sucks, headache and fever don't ever bother me to get it down. But antibiotic Cefuroxime works after that, it's a big relief for me.

After get my health back, met back Mian, Mun, Xian and MK in Brother John on Friday night. I and my sis had a big funny case before Xian and MK came and fetch me. Stupid cockroachs disturbed in my house, it flied here and there and made a damn big shock for us. Luckily my hero Xian and MK rescued us from the danger. I think this will be the funniest thing happened in this brand new year.

Then holiday ends, and I back to PJ, started my classes again. But currently in my mind, I just think about CNY and new clothes which I haven't finish buy yet. Gosh~ Make me concentrate in studies!

Can't wait for the CNY! =D

My two handsome boyfriends ♥

Roommates L8R8!

Hamper and happy me~ LOL

Ended up, my damn sick look~ LOL

P/S: Nodame Cantabile is the best ever Japanese drama I had ever watched!!