If...

It would be nice that I'm a billionaire...
It would be better if I'm a superman...
It would be great that if I can have a long holiday...
It would be the best if I can get what I wish for....

All I wish for will never be true... Really?

How am I suppose to continue my life without any hesitate or doubt anything like past?

I can't find back that feeling anymore....

What a pitiful thought I had it right now.... Big sigh... =(


P/S: Please let me go through all these.... I need courage and somebody to love and care me~

When February goes...

Last Friday accidentally get my PH which was the last year 31.12 (a sudden PH for celebrating our country won football champion), almost burnt but luckily sister allowed me to get it. So happily went back home in the morning and had a nice lunch with my dad at outside, then continue to watch my One Piece until I fall asleep, too tired and felt uncomfortable. Just stay at home for the whole day for resting. Don't know why I don't have mood to ask for hanging out with my buddies. Hormone imbalance I think.

Saturday morning went to Chan Optometrist -- my eyes specialist shop for my new specs with my mom. It's great when the optometrist told me that my power still maintain the same for 2 years plus, that means it become stable for my current age. Good sign for me since I don't want to make it worse anymore. Need to continue take care of my beautiful eyes, I still need you till the day I die. LOL~ After 2 years plus, finally I manage to get my new specs with more professional look. But due to lack of stock for lens, so I still waiting it to be send to my hostel. Thanks mom for sponsor me the specs!

Then noon time after lunch at home, went out with Mun for a window shopping. This was such a long long time ago that both of us shopping together. Talked about the past and present, she have a good life with her loved one, quite envy of it. We had our crepe cakes for high tea, it's delicious! Made my stomach had not enough space for my dinner, waste food and sorry about it. After dinner with dad and sis, back home and waiting for my yam-cha time with Xian Moi. Talked lots since just two of us only available on that night. It relieved some of my feeling, really thanks to her =)

Good luck to two of us =)

Sunday just stay at home for stick more time at there, 'cause I think I have no chance to go back again till on-block time, busy of all posting thingy. I dislike also not use, life still need to move on.

So currently I'm in nursery posting. It's nice to be with babies without cries! LOL~ I just pray to get what I need to achieve for this posting. Moody when think all those, but I can't get ruin of it without settle it nicely. So gambateh for all those!

I'm in love with BigBang again ♥

Missing

All of sudden, I miss those past. We used to play, joke and have fun together. Although now also we did the same things, but why I feel the feeling is not same as before? Is it because we grown up more, our prospective changed too, and it made our laugh not same anymore?

Actually, all I want is just a simple happy life. Why does it so difficult to make it? When I thought I'm in happiness, there will sure having something come and trouble me. When I thought this is all I wanted, there will be something to change my mind and made me cry. Why You want to make life so difficult? I don't understand.

I'm in doubt....

Being growing up is so helpless.... :(

Strong World

Haha~ Finally change the new look for my bloggie. It's a blue sky theme which having a love hanging on the sky, meaning that we must love everyday no matter what happened~ I know it's hard to accept by just saying or acting, but life always having obstacles which we need to go through it. Like what this quotation says that, "It’s not what happens to you, but how you react to it that matters. -- Epictetus" We need to learn from the incidents and try to react it. In this cruel world, we must be strong, to against all the bad.

This posting period, I have to be strong and cheeky to get the achievement. Of course without luck, I can't make it so far. So... PRAY HARD to God~ Please, I really need the luck! =)


This road, will never be easy....

It's 20!

Sorry for the late post because after that I was having my exam which used most of my time to study. So... Here's the details about my b'day celebration for my 20th years in this world!

12.2.11 (Sat)
Back to Melaka as we had already promise to sing K on the night. I knew there'll be a celebration for me, but out of my expectation it's about 11 people that gave me so many surprise especially all the presents and mango cake made by Xian's sister. Haha~ I was so glad to have such fun with all of you, except the part that you all trying to make out for him, but he doesn't have that initiative to do it, furthermore I had make my mind clear about that, so it's wasting time and effort to do so. But anyway, thanks for the celebration! Don't worry about it, I really enjoyed it so much and so well! 5 hours singing and yam cha afterward was so satisfactory. A big love to all of you~ (Weird part is I missed the most important 4 for the celebration, but maybe there's nothing to be feel worse about that....=( )

13.2.11 (Sun)
After reached hostel and enjoyed my dinner, there's a sudden attack from ji muis. A big chocolate indulge and a fake roses bouquet -- aww I just love to get a nice flower from someone, especially from handsome. But it's just from pretties, never mind then. Shared all the cakes out and took photos with them. Thanks to all my ji muis!

14.2.11 (Mon)
Main day -- actually I just get lots of attention from classmates and sang a b'day songs for me. Yea, I know I'm getting older. >< Received some presents and cake too! And I get my cosmetic bag from the talk because I'm the b'day girl. Haha~ It's happy to receive presents! Night time went to Ikano for window shopping, I just don't wanna be in hostel during my big day, especially when I'm not in my home.

Thanks to all of u !

So... There's no more "teens" in my life anymore, no handsome date with me during Valentine's and b'day. Just lots of friendship love and family love for this year~ Still not yet to buy a present for myself due to lack of some cash to get my target. I believe sooner I shall get it! Haha~ Hopefully next year I can having someone special to be with me on this big day! Pray hard! =D

I'll always appreciate of what my mom and dad did for me and my sisters forever and ever ❤

Innocent: Right or Wrong?

Talked with friend about one thing that a person did for me, but I didn't tried to do something for her about that. So been commented by her and said, "You should give her something as she helped you before, if not you'll always owe her a thank-you gift." I never thought that situation, from her words, I felt guilty about what I had did for the past.

But... What's the problem to be an innocent person? Can't we just say thank you after someone did help you? Is it compulsory to give something to that person so that it'll looks like a formal appreciation? I really appreciated of what anyone did for me, no matter that is good or bad. It made me to become better person. Can't I just appreciate it in my deep heart?

I had been so emo afterward. Although my friend apologized of what she said after she saw my tears dropped down, but I just cannot accept the fact. I cannot accept the apology.


I feel I'm the stupidest in this world ;(

兔gether We Celebrate CNY 2011

Haha~ Back from CNY leave and today is already the 3rd day of schooling, my CNY mood is turn off as exam is coming soon, some more just now had my resit pre-test (just because of 1 question! arggh~), thinking that this time sure can pass! IT IS A MUST!! If not I'm gonna mad and take out 20 bucks because of that. Pray hard!

So let's talk about this annual leave! Finally I get to attend my primary school gathering as every time they made I always at KL. Met back old friends was wonderful! Talked about the past which happened during Standard 5 and 6, singing in KTV and took photos with each of them. Although just about 11 of us attended out of 49 classmates, but it was a really awesome gathering we had. Good luck to all of us! =)

Then I rest at home for 3 days, no outing with friends, just One Piece animation and family with me! LOL~ Actually I'm just lack of motivation to ask friends to go out as scared they all reject my invitation. How stupid am I, right? But never mind then, I still enjoyed staying at home without doing anything. Because I knew that after that it sure will be very busy for my days. Hehe~ So I just helping mom what she want me to do, talking rubbish with my little sister and drive here and there for some purpose.

2 Feb was CNY eve, as usual we need to go to grandpa's house for cleaning and reunion lunch. This time quite different as my grandpa just back from hospital, so I observed my grandpa quite often, see how's his condition. Conclusion-- he's not as good as last time, seems like abit confused and bad tempered. I don't know what to do that can help him, although I'm a student nurse. Sigh~ But I tried my best to comfort him, hope he can be better than now. At night, all of sudden Xiong called me and asked whether want go to play basketball now. So I just followed and watching them playing, also talking our plan during CNY. Lastly, I managed to play Kongming Lantern/ Sky Lantern which bought by JT. It was the 1st time I play it, so very gan jiong to put it into the sky. Although it's so windy and almost burn the roof of the toilet house, some more I forgot to make a wish. What a big sweat on my head! But still it was fun and special experience with them on CNY eve to the 1st day of CNY! Hee~

Yummy lunch!

1st day of CNY, visiting my grandpa's house and receiving some angpau from relatives. Then playing games with cousins, laughed gao gao because of some stupid punishments! At night just stay at home watching "Mei Ren Bang". Nice movie from Malaysia! Actually not much thing to do much during 1st day, my real day starts afterward. LOL

2nd day, went to mother side relative's house and enjoyed lunch. Then back to grandpa's house till evening, back to home and preparing for BBQ! Met back all buddies and talking nonsense made my laughter more and more! BBQ damn delicious but it causing my throat inflamed also. We also gambled on the round table. Won 16 bucks from them, yeah! It's been a while I didn't win the money in the gamble, maybe because of S.Feng God of Prosperity sat beside me. LOL~ Meh bought a cake for celebrating Fern's belated birthday, but the quality of the cake really bad, doesn't look like from SR.

3rd day is the big day for our gang, we went to each house one by one from morning till night. This year we went to Mian, S.Feng, Xian, MK, Ham, Negi, Nyamuk, JT, S.Yin and J.Shen's house. Almost all the house they were gamble and gamble especially for King and Queen Gamble -- MK, S.Feng and Xian. Won and lose lots. Haha~ I always disturbed our "ffk" king-- Ham, it's nice to disturb him as I had a long time didn't do so! LOL~ Night time we went for dinner and fun fair. Managed to win some bears from there, although I don't like it so much. I almost flied up when playing the bam bam car. What a shock man! But then, it was a wonderful moment to be with all buddies, especially after a long time didn't meet up!

4th day, also the last day to be in home. I just spent my last moment with family. Had our reunion lunch since my sister can't make it during the eve. Then served relatives when they did sudden attack to visit my house. LOL. Then packed and back here, start all over again.

Time is short especially when the happy moment, but I really appreciated every moment that we spent with. Hope all of us stay pretty, handsome, healthy and happy! Love ya♥


P/S: Can't wait for singing K! Hehe~