'Mix and Match'

Working in the hospital definitely may made you see through this world. I had seen so many kind of human being while I'm doing my practical for this 2 years and 6 months. Depressed, arrogant, egoism, cheerful, talkative, anti-social, opinionated, urbane... All these made me to think of what kind of human being should I be. So sharpen my patience, lessen my negative words, speaks my words politely, eat healthy diet, always bring my smile toward others -- this is what I turned to be currently. Maybe you all still wondering did I turned into that way, perhaps I just show that characteristics during working, but definitely I changed after at all. I know myself better than others.

So what's all the point I talked as above? Nothing special but just to reflect myself compared past and present, also compared to others. As you know new year is just the corner, I need to set some resolutions for the brand new year. But it still too early to show what I really want to achieve for the next 21st year, my existence in this world. Haha. Just stay tuned.

These few weeks as usual, busy with all those posting and settle down my procedures. Exhausted, but when I'm thinking of what's going to happen if this and that cannot turned as what I wish, I still hold my breathe and continue the job. Now still left 2 to be achieved, just see will it end as what I wish. Hopefully it does.

And finally is the day I waited for so long -- Christmas! It means I can go back to my sweet home and meet all my beloved people! Can't wait for all that~

Till end, I don't know why I wanna post this rojak post. Too bored to write journal. XD

Happy Winter Solstice! Merry Christmas!

It's RM2.50 to exchange my "Happy Winter Solstice" mood~

P/S: All I want for Christmas is YOU!!! =D

December - It's X'mas Season!

Sunday went to Berjaya Times Square Hotel with my sis and her bf to have high-tea buffet which last time I won the voucher in the event. Big apple restaurant, which I was thinking of another big apple donuts LOL, is a nice place to have some romantic lunch with your beloved. I love the beef so much! There also having live performance by singing oldies. But I don't think I have another chance to go there anymore unless I found richie. Hahaha~


After that we went shopping as my sister needs some accessories for her bbf's wedding. All the shopping malls decorated so nice, everywhere just having Christmas astmosphere~ I'm really in love with Christmas season!
Can't wait to celebrate Christmas with my beloved buddies! But I still can't get the Christmas present~ Headache...



P/S: There's no need to rush. If something is meant to be, it will happen, in the right time, with the right person, for the best reason.

心有余力 而力不足

十二月的第一天
天灰灰
后来还下了一场雨
冲凉后的自己
觉得好冷好冷
只好随手拿了件外套
让自己暖和了身子
但心却很冷
少了你的拥抱
怎样都没办法
温暖自己的心房

如果我说想爱
未经过你的同意
那也只是我的一厢情愿
强逼你的同意
不是会太卑微了自己吗

所以我
依旧惯用自己的法子
让自己麻木吧
不再抱任何期望

只盼上天的眷顾
好让天空不再哭泣了

想你，几许悲凉，
想你，几许哀伤，
想你，几许执着，
想你，几许温柔，
想你，在你看不到的方向，
我的幸福，
只是那昙花一现般的忧伤。

—— 想你，是我孤单的幸福。

End of Nov -- It's not the end, indeed

Last week was the busiest week as we were having final exam for Sem 5. Everyday was cracked my brain to know all the knowledge and prayed hard that questions was not that hard. Finally it ended and we started to worry about procedures and House Final exam which will coming in next year, also LJM exam too! Although extremely anxious but still need to go through it when it comes, so just be prepared and let's fight for the best!

So as usual after exam went to MV for 'You are the apple of my eye' movie from Giddens, really awesome and touching. I really miss those days in secondary school, although my secondary school times didn't involved in any love case. LOL~ And of course I went back home just to relax myself, hang out with family and buddies. It will and always to calm and comfort me whenever I feel sad and happy. That's what we called as true friends. Thanks for all of them Especially to my dearest ji mui Mian! Heart her the most! Just pray hard that what is on my mind will happen~

Love the singing and guitar in the air on Saturday night~

After few months didn't touch the utensils, my homemade cook! XD

Now back to posting life, wish to get all my crosses in my log book. If not I'll be in a big trouble. Fingers crossed!

真正的爱情需要等待，谁都可以说爱你，但不是人人都能等你。

洋 葱

当你一层又一层地扒开

我表面上的那个假面

到了最后的那一层

看到

那个赤裸裸的我

是否也会

流下

泪水

~我并不是你想像中的那么勇敢

Last Saturday Night

Yesterday as promised I have to in-charged of AVA in our College Of Nursing Night which held on our college hall.This year my friends as committee decided to do something special than past, so "Magical Night" like Harry Potter scenes decorations did and it's really awesome! Good job for all of them. But actually I'm not enjoyed well during CON Night because too much problems appeared, and I was so fed up of all that. My first and the last time attended this just left me the unhappy memory. So because too busy of all that, I unable to take photo with all my pretty friends. It's unworthy to wear so pretty and grandly. After party I followed my friends went for clubbing to get some view of it, yet still can't enjoy so much. Perhaps I just can ignore all these? Sigh~ But still thanks to my ji muis for accompany me to do and support me, it felt more encouragement and thus I have some strength to go on.

My only individual photo on that night ==

Ticket to the train and prize~

So one more to in-charge for my seniors' graduation and one more week for my final exam, yet I still not yet start my revision, also so much things still pending and need to settle! Great! Currently I'm mentally abuse. How wish all these faster settle peacefully.... Pray hard for the best!

11.11.11 -- Nothing special happened on me. Dream too much for that.


P/S: I miss my family and buddies in Melaka!! Hopefully can see you all soon!

Starting my November 2011

It's been a week after the annual leave, time was so packed that can't get rest enough. Everyday I experienced headache and lack of sleep, just because of the practical exam and the dance practice for the CON Night. So I decided not to go home just because of want to get enough sleep, although there's 2 and a half days off before continue our nightmare.

Saturday went to Chow Kit just wanna see how is it the place, as everyone said there's a messy place in KL. But I found it is very interesting place, there's a variety kind of human being over there working and shopping, especially foreign workers. My friend HY bought us to Plaza GM for wholesale market shopping. It's really much cheaper than we usually buy at the normal market. But yet I still control my money, if not I can't live it until next allowance come.

Yesterday went to Sunway for my high heels, but still can't get it after shop for 10 hours. Others can get what they want except me. Sigh~ I'm too fastidious of high heels pattern. So see who wanna borrow their high heels for me, if not I'm gonna wear sport shoes on CON Night. LOL

Today must done all my to-do-lists, if not I'm gonna hit my head on the wall. Happy holiday!

Is it nice my curl hair look?

P/S: Can't I just stop missing you?