Memories Forever

Last Friday, went back to home as just wanna release stress before the block is on again. So after dinner with family, as usual hanging out with my buddies at Amigo just the sake of guy's hunger, then headed to Klebang Seafarer and watched darkness sea, then only went to have some beer at Sunset Bistro. Reached home around 1.30am as having some headache due to alcohol, quickly brush teeth and lying to bed get my sleep. Around 2.30am, my little sister wake me up, but I refused, suddenly my mom talk very loud and said, "You want to see your grandpa or not? Doctor asked us to go and see him now!" I was stunt and awake fully after digest my mom's sentence, "WHAT???" This is my answer.

So quickly change my clothes and all of us rushed to the GH, it took some time because my dad took the wrong way to enter the hospital. When we reached the ward, my grandpa just passed away. Then there's the sad story started. All my relatives trying their best to rush back hometown and settle the funeral. Sorrow, sadness and stress happened to all of us.

I knew one day it would be like this, but never thought that the day come so fast. Death, I saw so many during my practical in hospital. But happened on my relative, this was the first time. Actually the feeling so complicated, I can't describe it. I think so much and deeply, wonder why death must happen to all creatures in this world. But there's no answer for that. Or actually I already know that answer, just deny it.

Anyway, life must go on. It is here in my heart and mind and memories forever -- Dedicated to my beloved grandpa. ♥

It takes time to recover.

Lucky 787

Lately was so busy due to last week posting at psychiatric ward, and many journals need to be done. So everyday I rush and rush but till now still got some haven't done yet, when only I can finish it all?? Sigh~~

So recently what did I had, actually the routine almost the same but still something special to go on. Hehe~

Firstly, I successfully done my 3rd time night shift, although every night were so damn busy till we all having "food on run", not much time to eat supper, and slept so long hours still can't recover back the tiredness, even after my night off still the same. Of course, I did feel sad about that, 'cause there's no one really can accept the death in a very short period, although is stranger. May you rest in peace.

I really enjoy well during my night off. Had a great moment with my family, ate my mom's homecook, and sleep at my own lovely bed. Met Xiong and Xian too, but I miss the rest of them also. Watched The Smurfs, a great movie and really laugh out loud in the threater, also Nasi Lemak 2.0, a truly Malaysia film. Holiday is short, but I appreciate the time be with them. =)

Second, I went to IJN event on 25 Sept Sunday early morning, had a mile walk around Taman Tasik Titiwangsa, and surprisingly I won a consolation prize from lucky draw no. '787' -- 2 persons buffet high tea voucher at Berjaya Times Square KL. Teehee~~ So happy about that I didn't miss it! Because when I just went out from the toilet and I heard my lucky draw number from the stage, I quickly ran to the stage there and trying to reconfirm, but I saw a lady went up and took her prize and thus I thought my prize gone as I took too long time to reach there, but luckily my sixth sense told me not to give up, and I went to the stage and reconfirm with the emcee. Haha~ So now just awaiting my sister back from her Taiwan trip and date her to there!

Third, had my first time ever experience in psychiatric posting at HKL. Get many brand new experiences from there as we usually won't contact with this type of patients in our hospital. Saw some extraordinary scenes and really made us in a big shock and laugh too. Life is cruel to make them become like that. So that's why many people said reality orientation is much important for all of us, we must be able to manage our stress and not to get ourselves in bad mood too long period. Every cloud has a silver lining~ But yet I still hate the rushing journal part and not to forget the mumbling part, and of course the hot weather too! XD

So because of all these stress, after the case study presentation, we went to eat Chilis as to distress for a short while. We kept on refill the chips for 2 times and scary part is to refill the variety of fruit juices for 5 times. LOL~ After 2 hours and finally fulfill our stomach and happiness too! Heehee~

This week will be the last week of posting for Semester 5 1st half, and here we go to the 2nd half, which will be much more busy than previous as we will having exam, OSCE and many events to participate. My sleeping time will be reducing and tiredness will continuously top up. Going to collapse soon if not to take a break!

Looking forward to go back home on Friday! Because I already missing you all too much! ^^



P/S: I still wander around, and finding all the possibilities to make myself believe in that.

Fullstop = The New Beginning

Yeap, I think that's the end of story. I had made my mind clear enough. There's not such thing in this world can be overcome with the word "I love you" only. If love can overcome everything, why we still have war and unfair scenes in this world? I can't see the future that I wanted, so bear with that and till death let's us apart.


It's too hard to meet my desired love.


Perhaps I really not deserve to have any relationship for my entire life.=(




"It takes three seconds to say “I love you”, three hours to explain it , and a lifetime to prove it."

我落日般的忧伤就像惆怅的飞鸟，惆怅的飞鸟飞成我落日般的忧伤。

看过微博上有这样的一个说法，“在对的时间遇见对的人，是一生幸福；在对的时间遇见错 的人，是一场心伤；在错的时间遇见错的人，是一段荒唐；在错的时间遇见对的人，是一阵叹息。你最爱的，往往没有选择你；最爱你的，往往不是你最爱的；而最长久的，偏偏不是你最爱也不是最爱你的，只是在最适合的时间出现的那个人。”

而我依然怀疑着，那个感觉，总是觉得很不真实，好假好假。从出生以来，我只相信我看到和第六感的感觉，其他的都抱着半信半疑的态度。或许我必须改变这态度，可是缺乏安全感的自己却说服不了自己，没办法过到这一关。永远都活在自己的安全范围内，才是我自在的理由。

我想我自己都无法改变这事实，就这样地让它发生吧！是我的就是我的,不是的就会离开我远远的。

缘分这事总是很搞笑地发生。哈~



P/S: 不要太想念过去，因它会给你带来悲伤；不要太思考未来，因它会带给你恐惧；用微笑活在当下，它会带来喜乐。

还有明晚开始我的4天夜班，加油吧！过后我想回家好好彻底放松下，见见家人和老友。心灵很累啊~~

Raya Holiday

Yeap, last week had my 4 days off at hometown. Nice to relax myself in home on the 1st day after tired work. Then 1st day Raya, as usual received many ketupats and rendang chicken and other foods from neighbours! We ate for our breakfast and lunch, very full and blessed! Then evening went out with my lil' sister for groceries and window shopping. I spent alot on that~ Then night time still stay at home doing nothing, because of laziness. LOL

2nd day Raya a.k.a Malaysia Independent Day, went out with long-time-no-see friends as farewell. Watched Cars 2 which is very funny, I really laughed out loud in theater. Then night time farewell gathering with Bowling, Fang and Kel as they are going for further studies in local U. Good luck to all of you!

The next day, went to sing K with Xian, MK and Xiong. I'm the driver as Xiong's car got some problem. Luckily the journey was safe and nothing happened. Sing for 3 hours and we headed to DP as they all want to buy something. After that we went to eat Tom Yam steamboat as Xian's family having dinner there too. 3 of us just went and try, ended up we sweated alot because it's too spicy. Haha~ MK swear that he won't eat at there anymore in his life. Then we went to yam cha with Nyamuk and JT as Nyamuk seldom come back. He really mature alot compared to last time in secondary school. Had a great talk with all the guys!

Last day just stay at home and rest well, because I knew I'm sure will get very busy after back to college~ Currently condition really can prove my words! Tiring...

Seashore~~

This is really spicy *HOT*

All the best in studies everyone =)

P/S: Are you the one? I'm really have no idea...

又寂寞 又美好

什么都别说
我只想拥抱你

不需要任何语言
那体温
足够化解那忧伤
温暖了心

试问
何时才出现
真实的你

-为什么伤害隔着那么远都能做到，而安慰，却必须在身旁才行呢？-

Undescribable

Finally done my exam on Friday. Friday night had my horror movie section with AVA girls and collegemates too! Scream till my throat pain, but it's really satisfied! Saturday morning rush with journal and I'm back to home after that, as usual just to relax myself.

Pool time with Negi and MK =)

Actually I thought nobody will date me as I already sms-ed to some of them and they were unavailable, so I just made my mind to stay at home and doing nothing. Fb message popped up and was MK who asked me, "Want to go and play pool?" I was stunt for a second and agreed. We went there, and I am the only girl who was in the shop. A big sweat on my head 'cause everyone was looking at me, I quickly ran to them. After took the balls from counter, then we're playing at the corner. Luckily it wasn't too obvious, because I played too bad as this was my second time after the form 3 genting trip. My sports sifu -- Negi laughed at me and told me not to do this and that, have to be like this and that. When finish our game, Xiong called up for supper, then just me and MK went as Negi tomorrow need to work in the early morning.

Sunday woke up by Voone's call, then chit-chatted with mom for recently cases. Received a surprised phone call from Jonathan, talked for quite a long time as long time no chat. We'll meet each other soon~ Noon time went to JJ with sister and had a window shopping. Reached home, lying on my bed and almost overslept, luckily dad cooked fried rice (my 1st time to eat) for my dinner. And then rush to bus station and back to posting life.

Nice fried rice ever in my life ♥

Too much feeling mixed into my mind, I can't describe it into words. But it made me feel so blessed ♥



P/S: If that is the fate, then I rather do not want it.