Save Your Last Dance For Me

眼看时间慢慢地在流逝，头都没回地走了。那个日子即将来临了，心越来越不舍。你从来没想过，原来越抗拒的心，它就会像磁铁般地紧紧相依在一块。心，其实很复杂，但没人看得出来。没关系，就让它慢慢走回原本正常的轨道上吧！

习惯了你的存在，那就像是即将变成了像空气般的普通存在，毒品般地慢慢上瘾，就快让人招架不住了。这坏习惯，我想是时候该戒掉了。要不然变成了烟瘾般地惯例，我可吃不消 ！

但我想我还是会想念你。不时地想念你的微笑，想念你的恶作剧，想念你的温柔，直到有另一个人可以取代那个位子。还是没办法再找到了？说实话，我其实很害怕。

看着那黑色盒子，真的能如愿以偿地到达你手中吗？我不禁担心了起来，却无法鼓起勇气找寻你。心想，如果你还记得我们的约定，就一定会找回我的。默默等待，就是现在的唯一任务。

好吧，就这样吧！怀着那珍重的心情，迎接我们最后的共舞吧！Would you save your last dance for me?

GG?

Nothing much to talk about my job, everyday seems like repeating the same things, busy with the same kind of stuffs. Although sometimes people's words hurt, and others don't seems like understand your situations, but I still able to stand strong and continue the pathway. I know, it's gonna be very cruel in working life, whether you like it or not, you still need to do it with perfection. I'm really tried my best to do it well. Just sometimes I really need somebody to support me whenever I feel happy, sad, frustrated.. That's made me feel what I did is worth. The very good person I really found is going to leave me soon, so I better don't put so much of hope on that particular person, if not it's gonna hurt me deeply.. =)

I just had a wonderful weekend with my 'cousie' when I'm back to hometown. Thought nice moment can everlasting but never thought that bad luck happened on me at last.

Past 2 days I just met an incident, been robbed by an unknown guy at my working area in the early morning while I was going about for work. I admitted myself as a person who had really slow motion response, even heard the motor sound so near to me, but I still thought that it might just one of the staff in the hospital who're going to late work.When that fucker pulled my bag and I was just fell down to roadside, only my anger and embarrassed feeling straight to my brain. Why this fucker wanna take my useless bag (for him, for me is very useful) since my Pierre Cardin bag just fulled with bottle, umbrella, biscuits and my checklist? Damn seriously frustrated man!! I was very angry and felt very painful as it hurts my hands and legs, tears came out and I just walked to ER for help. Everyone was so shocked and brought me to dressing room and cleaned up my wounds. After a big hu-ha in hospital, I went to do police report with my sister's colleague driver ambulance Pak Cik. Then informed my family and some of my close friends about this. Everyone seems very worried about me, and I felt so sorry about that. Just ILTB felt damn funny while reading my police report as it sounds nonsense and joke, I admitted. LOL! But still luckily not much injuries on me, if not I'm surely dead. So this lesson taught me to be more paranoid abit when I'm alone, if not danger will always come and find me.

This report seems like a joke but actually it's not! ><

So little update from me, hopefully happy things happened on me more and more!! I'm seriously need good luck!! =]


P/S: Never forget the things that once make you smile ❤ I'll never forget the moment be with you!

我总是一个人在练习一个人

开始了工作的日子也有快两个星期了。在新的环境下要学习的东西有好多好多，幸好遇到了愿意指导的前辈们，相信自己慢慢也会上手的。给自己个爱的鼓励！

不过一个人的生活真的是太枯燥乏味了。每天回到房里，都只面对着那四面墙和ASUS电脑。没人能再像宿舍生活般的随时吹吹水，陈群地走街吃看看了。想要说话时，却没人聆听。那感觉实在是糟透了。看着联络簿想要找个倾述的对象，却不知要找的这个人是否在忙吗；要约人出去走走，也害怕别人会嫌麻烦的要载自己一程；肚子饿了想出去外面吃，却害怕被坏人打主意而待在房间啃面包泡面。总要有人陪伴自己做些事情，但毕竟现在每个人都是为了自己而活，不会有人这么地要管我的死活吧。（会不会太负面影响了？）那黑暗快要吞噬着自己快要喘不过气来了。天啊~ 才两个星期就这样，还有多少年的时间自己要这样地过活下去？完全不能想象。。。

原来我竟是如此地害怕孤单。;(

要怎样改变现状？我不了。。。

P/S: 很多人都以为我很坚强，其实不然，我也是逼不得已的。。。

6月杂文

6月13号，纪念着这三年来的辛酸，终于在那两个小时半的考试中永远地结束了。心中涟漪着种种的不舍，是有了依赖？还是想逃避那赤裸裸的现实？在还来不及一一回味时，车子已经到达了我未来居住和工作的另一个城市。吃力地搬迁我所有的东西，草草地打扫下那布满灰尘的房间。我看着那空荡荡的房间，问着自己，这就是我以后的寄居地了？那五味杂全的感受，你也曾感受过吗？

后来我回到了家乡，每天都快乐地与家人和那一班死党到处去玩乐。期中还跟3位好友去了趟热浪岛，那热爱旅游的心又回来了。看着那一望无际蓝蓝的大海，默默在心里许下了以后一定要跟自己最爱的那个人一起去海边旅游，毕竟与爱人和与好友的海边旅游总会有非凡不同的感受。看着自己朋友圈的那对情侣的甜蜜互动，让我的想法更加稳固了。

旅游回来后又继续跟死党的聚会，从未间断过。尤其那星期六夜晚的疯狂，更是让人意犹未尽。我想自己开始中了那个毒，该要戒掉吗？过后KL朋友的来访，当了小小的导游，不过觉得自己其实更像是旅客，自己还是不太认识自己长大的城市，这样的我会不会太失败？

每晚的死党摊开心坦白畅聊时光， 总让自己更陷入漩涡中。说再多，如果没有了行动，也是白费。记得曾有人对我说，我是个勇敢有想法的成熟女生，别害怕面对将来的一切，那些经历总会让自己更加坚强，成为更厉害的人。但其实说实话，我也只想平平淡淡度过一生罢了，轰轰烈烈是很刻苦铭心，但也很累人。反复地在猜想一个人的想法，好累好累。你到底要什么，可以告诉我吗？


 7月，会是我人生中新的道路开始。祝福我自己！

P/S： 长大后，幸福快乐，总是附带着条件...

看图说故事

P/S: 不爱我，就別感动我。我很傻，会被你感动。

~ 未完，待续。

To be or not to be, there is a big question.

Whenever I need somebody to talk with, I usually thinking of some people. Unfortunately when I wanna find them and share out the problem, there's no one to stay there and listen to me. I'm not blaming them of not listening to me, I understand that they might have some important thing to do on that time. Just sometimes I really desperately need a pair of ears to listen whatever my stupid thoughts or feeling, and a warm hug to comfort me and wipe off my tears. Is it so hard to get a person to be with me of what I really want?

I don't understand. But it made me stronger and cold-blooded more.



P/S: I believe there will be a good ending for this chapter, if not let's just start a brand new chapter.

天下没有不散的宴席

上星期回家一趟，出席了Negi 的 生日聚会，还有与妈妈，婆婆和二姑一家的母亲节晚餐。很开心地见到他们，总是让我乐开怀。还有久违地跟贤妹，绵和雄的深入谈心时光，心里豁达了许多。有了这班友人，让自己有了最美的时光。在这要感谢寿星公的慷慨，有了个很爽的免费晚餐和宵夜，虽然到最后浪费了些。LOL

即将要毕业了，眼看着身边的朋友都很努力地找房间搬家买家私，心里总是有些感伤。同窗三年的朋友即将离别，回到自己该在的地方。虽然嘴里说还是可以时常出来见面，还是很不舍，毕竟并不是全部人都在同个地区，尤其是我。看来我接下来的日子可就闷死了，可以当个十足的宅女。
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希望能遇到好房主，好住宿，好工作，好未来生活！(衷心期许着)


P/S: 时间告诉我，无理取闹的年龄过了，该懂事了！！！